u/smolcloudkoo

I saw one post of someone here a long a time ago saying they naturally stopped regressing and everyone in the comments were kinda like '' you did it, it healed you!''

And it was like weird because isn't regression a habit?

Are we meant to regress for whenever we want or potentially heal and stop it?

I just installed venice because grok has become so bad and i heard ppl talk about venice, i installed the app, and first i was like '' thats so cool '' because its better than grok but it is trash anyways.. writing is good but the whole mobile app is so broken, theres errors everywhere, prompts don't work, using the app feels so unatural it is slow asl.. limits might be as trash as grok even tho you can't switch accounts on grok.. and yeah.. i dont like it but i see the vision they just need to do some work on it because it is very annoying using it

When i refer to when i was age regressing for the first time ( like the 2-3 first months ) i say stuff like '' when i was a baby '' like i grew up as a baby to a little in like a few months lol (｡ᵕᴗᵕ｡).. i find this cute

Idk how flair ts but yeah

Idk if its trans racial or not but i def want to not be white anymore and by that i mean that im mixed, north african - white, and its very visible on my phenotype... I kinda hate it.. i had struggled with being mixed and now i just wanna look like my kind ( or a specific part of it because theres def pale native north africans out there! ) but me since im mixed im rly more insecure about it so yeah..

I dont like my white pale skin that can become red-ish just like europeans skin

I hate my wavy straight hair that i wanna force curls in, i just want to be a normal maghrebi and have curly hair that's it because its beautiful and I'm already struggling enough with my natural hair i ain't gon be surprised by the curly hair struggle anyways

And maybe thats about it..

Maybe less ethnically stuff i wanted to have is like, less body hair because it sucks its ugly even tho im a boy i dont like it.. but thats it.. just want to look more cute without it being rly '' racial '' and i dont have like light hair or eyes both are dark so thats the more '' Mediterranean '' thing i have on my face..

Most of my insecurities comes with just being a white european like when i see myself in the mirror i dont belong to like half of my blood..

So yeah..

I dont like being half morrocan and half white european.. and also be passing only as white pretty much ( having fair skin wavy hair even tho its dark ), im not even avoiding racism towards me like even if im half of that stupid european blood and it shows on my ugly face they dgaf.. and i dont feel accepted with a lot of other africans thinking im white even both parts of my families used to not accept me for those stuffs back when i was a kid.. even tho not all of them hopefully.. still i hate it im not accepted by anyone.. plus i dont accept myself as a gawri because their culture trash and i dont relate to them.. so now i want to look only morrocan, and i say that im only morrocan( i already do, nun believe me ).. i dont like my skin, i dont like my straight fucking wavy hair mess i tried to get a perm but i couldnt because i cuted parts of my hair because im a retard, i also dont like other parts of me but those might be rly less race/ethnicity related stuff.. but yeah thats pretty much it, my interest are also towards my morrocan/north african side, like music, history, culture, language, etc.. i want to talk about it online with like posting content with my face and stuff but i would just look like a vulture walahi.. even tho thats my culture i can speak about those stuff i know about them but nah im white afterall i gotta accept it.. and i dont like other half white maghrebis tbh, even tho i relate to them to an extent... im kinda dumb for crashing out about ethnic stuff

sooo i have a rly hard growing up as an autistic teen and as a little, dealing with loneliness and existential dread ( among other things that are more personal )

And i rly have that need, that i need to have 10 more years to grow up because basicaly im 16 in 2yrs im considered fully grown and that brings me such a high level of anxiety in my whole life its crazy( • ᴖ • ｡)

And sooo with my loneliness i been craving for a mommy so hard and ( im not asking to anyone to be my cg btw jus feelings ) i genuinely want someone to help me grow 10more years jus like it was my parent but thats so stupid and delusional but thats the only thing that brings me purpose rn i feel rly lost and lonely, craving for love and stuff,(っ- ‸ - ς).. i might be delusional for thinking someone is gonna ''save me''.. idk what to do to deal with it, having fwends maybe.. i lowkey fear ppl

seems silly but i feel like boys arent rly represented in littlespace communities, def not as much as girls.. is there reasons for that ( ╹ -╹)? is there like somekind of psychological explanations for this or am i overthinking(ᵕ—ᴗ—)?.. only spaces where i see more boys is abdl, idk anything about abdl tho so even this, idk.. is there more chances that a boy becomes a daddy in littlespaces ???

idk what to do since like i dont have toys and stuff, just stuffies.. i cant rly play + i feel like i cant immerse myself enough into littlespace, little me wants mooooore૮₍ ˶>⤙<˶ ₎ა

jus a question i was asking myself when i was little type stuff.. would be interesting tho i know there's some who makes lofi music but what other genres, styles yall be making( ╹ -╹)?

jus a question that has come in my mind when i was little lol, can be anything u wanna share

idk, i made a post with mostly feeling about my feelings changing and autism stuff, it included agere related topics too but nobody payed attention or the mods blocked it idk tbh but i wanna ask this, am i breaking a rule or what( ╹ -╹)?