u/sociallyawkward_123

I scored one of the highest grades in midterms in my class (12th) and came second, however because I was absent in two practicals my rank dropped to 4th, which I didn't care much about until I went to my PTM, and my class teacher said not a single word of praise for my efforts and went batshit infront of my mother, calling me indisciplined, disrespectful, vain, and many other such adjectives. Just because I was absent in two mid-term practicals?? After topping in accountancy (all commerce sections) scoring 76 in Bst, 74 in Eco, 72 in applied maths, this is reaction I get at my PTM.

She was very loud in her scoldings, it was very clear that her intention was to humiliate me in front of the other parents present there, and she succeeded. She made her contempt very obvious as her temper when talking to even students who had failed in few of their subjects was much gentler than when she was dealing with me.

Now I can't bear going to school because as soon as there is more than 1 teacher in the class, they make it their goal to gang up on me and start taunting me over my incomplete notebooks, my low attendance, or my overall low attention towards school. Their go-to dialogue is "She is only good at studies and nothing else" ??? How is a student even supposed to react to that😭

After I topped in Acoountancy, Applied Maths, and came 1st overall last year in 11th, I didn't even receive a smile from these fuck ass teachers, let alone a congrats. How miserable do you have to be to treat a child like this?

The good thing about all this is that when I started crying about this at home, my mom, who didn't say a word at the PTM itself, started scolding me for taking my teacher's words seriously. I recounted this whole scenario to my tuition teacher as well, and she had the same reaction as my mom.

My hair is 2b, very wavy and I like wearing it in blowouts and sometimes with a curly hair routine. Where I live rn the temprature is 45 fucking degrees most of the time with RAIN!!! So the water from the previous day on the pavements basically boils off steaming all the people in the process.

Neither of the two routines are working and I wanna cry for how ugly my hair looks rn. Rn I just put it in updos and call it a day- I am also perpetually sweating the entire day, so my bangs puff up and look SOO ugly and the texture on the back of my head just keeps coming back because of the sweat+humidity.

Just taking my hair out of the ponytail makes me wanna cry cuz I can't look at it for more than 10 seconds.

Does anyone else also feel this way??

Back when I used to fail in my classes (around 4th-7th) all I would hear from my father was, "स्कूल बंद करवा कर भेड़ बकरी चरवाएंगे तुमसे" and now that I'm topping in ALL my subject (no exceptions, especially maths and accounts) to the extent that I scored 80/80 in accounts, he has now suddenly flipped his attitude and says things like "Marks don't matter, your cleverness does." "A degree is just a sheet of paper." and the worst of all "Commerce तो हल्का subject है", किसी भी ऐरे गैर के number आ जाते हैं"😭 Fahhhhh

Like I get it, commerce is wayyy easier than science but at least don't discredit my achievements lmao

For context, I'm 16f and my dad lives abroad to stay away from my mom. If I remember correctly she was diagnosed with Bipolar quite a few years back but no matter how much we insist she take her meds she does not.

She has a habit of rambling about things that happened years and decades ago to anyone and everyone around her about how her husband left her, how she had to leave her education after marriage, how bad her in-laws treated her and so on. Which I agree are all real struggles since she lowk can't even read properly and being left alone with two little kids is a struggle- but tf did I do in all of this?? Why am I being beat up for things that happened before I was born????

She's lowk crazy and all the fights in the household take place because of her, so my dad very conveniently took up the excuse of work and left us here with this headcase, he does come back every 3 months or so for a week but then it ends with them getting in a physical fight with eachother anyways so the visits have been decreasing.

In 2020, my dad went on his first long business trip and my mom went haywire- I still remember she would go week long attacking sprees in which the first thing she would do after waking up was hit me and then continue doing it the entire rest of the day, this would go on for days before she would stop and start doing it again, she would slap me, stomp on me, kick me, hit me with a stick, throw me out of the house at midnight, hurl verbal abuses as me and much more. I was just 10.

6 years later she has yet not stopped, now that im grown up she constantly says to me on random occassions stuff like "You're a whore" "You'll be raped by men in the streets" "You will be paraded around naked in the city" "You will die in your own faeces" "I should have killed you when you were born" her mind is very much taken over by purity culture and all these things were I believe drilled into her head when she was a child hence she tries to do the same with me.

Yesterday she enters my room to once again tell the same story, with the same script for the 100th time (no hyperbole, Im pretty sure that in the 6 years she has certainly told this story more than 100 times considering how often she says it) ready to hurl abuses at me over somthing I had no control over.

She wasn't really planning on hitting me I believe, she came to my room just to call me a bad omen over this household and a whore, when right in the middle of it I picked a pen and stabbed her in the arm with it, it didn't go through, the nib just pricked her slightly.

I tried hitting her a few days ago too but this time I actually did it, in self defense she strangles me and gave me a scar on my face but whatevs- SHE STILL CAME BACK A SECOND TIME WITH HER SAME SOB STORY AFTER FIFTEEN MINUTES- this time I didn't hold back and with the anger of the past 6 years I stabbed her again and again with the pen, they were all surface level wounds but she got bruised up pretty bad, and I too got many minor injuries since physically she is much stronger than me.

Now she has forgotten all of it as always and is lovingly calling me for breakfast. Earlier I used to think my dad was in the wrong for beating her but now I understand what went in his head- she deserves ALL OF IT. I FUCKING HATE HER.

My dad says he'll come pick us up after both me and my brother (14) turn 18 but tbh idk how much those words will hold true, my mom always paints him as a person who will estrange us as soon as he gets a chance so I'm not sure whether to trust him or not, but then again these were statements of my mom so idk- I just wanna get as as from her as possible.

Sorry yalll this was just a rant😭

I fell for the Esim scam yesterday and my mom's sim card stopped working. We immediately went to the airtel centre near us and got the number deactivated, but to get a new sim we require the presence of the person under whom the number is registered, but it is under my dad's name who currently abroad and won't be back till at least a month or two.

Now all the bank accounts are connected to her number, and now while the scammer won't be able to withdraw the money we won't be either so I'm lowk scared asf because I'm just 16 and don't know much bank stuff and my mom doesn't either. I just want the number to be up and running again so is there something we can do to get it working again?

Istg im also so mad at my dad because why does he have the number in his name and didn't file an NOC when he knows he isn't here half the time, now he's shouting at me from the other side of the world.

Please help yall 😭