Keep putting on weight
I’ve had two kiddos since 2019. I used to be so thin with a great metabolism. I could eat anything and never put on weight. Well, that “eat anything” screwed me over in pregnancy. I have not been able to get back to a comfortable weight. I’m currently the heaviest I’ve been, 50 pounds heavier than I was before I ever got pregnant.
I’m so frustrated. I work out at home… just little online 15-20 minute workouts. I walk when I can. I have a small farm so I’m semi-active around the house and yard. I try to eat clean… I will admit I do love my sweets. That’s been the hardest thing for me. I can go all day eating good, and then the evening comes, and I binge eat sweets after the kiddos are in bed.
I quit drinking alcohol a year ago. That’s when I really picked up eating for comfort. I was a functional drinker… needed it to sleep, relax, not be overwhelmed. I’m so glad to be AF, but I thought that quitting alcohol would also benefit me in my weight loss…. I’ve actually put on more weight since being a non drinker than I ever had as a drinker.
My kids are young… I’m a SAHM, my husband is neurodivergent, my eldest daughter is neurodivergent, and my toddler is extremely needy, and still breast feeding at age 3. Im stressed and tired. I am in therapy. Also been seeing a psychiatrist for 5 years. I grew up with a lot of trauma and I am finally becoming emotionally stable and grounded. I am taking 150mg of Effexor (mood) and 1mg of Prazosin (nightmares). I also take hydroxyzine when needed (daily currently).
Yesterday I cancelled a beach trip with my family just because I put on my bathing suit and felt so disgusted with my body. I know “all bodies are bikini bodies,” but it’s so hard. I store my fat mostly all in my stomach and love handles and arms. I feel so unattractive. Not to mention I deal with severe bloating, digestive issues, and constipation off and on… and always have. Could it be the medications? I know the sweets pertain. The stress? Do I need to workout more?
I’m looking for positive advice… small things I can change, words of encouragement, some kind of hope.