I got it prescribed for bipolar depression.
I'm generally against psychiatric medications but my mind has been so fucked lately that I'm desperate enough to give it a try. I picked up the pills just yet, am supposed to take one before bed. I've been drinking lately but not a lot imo.
Any1 here taking this shit?
Been pouring a constant stream of vodka down my throat for a few weeks, yesterday I decided to put the bottle down for a while, at least for the remainder of this month. I must get my act together and get a job and blahblah, starting today.
Today rolls around, obviously all ambitions to better myself and become a productive member of society go down the drain pretty quickly. After a few hours of bedrotting I decide fuck it, today ain't the day, but I was so fucking stressed I couldn't breathe right like borderline full panic attack. My anxiety levels have been through the roof lately, idk what that's all about. So I was in no state to drive, didn't want to walk either.
No booze in this fucking house because I'm the only drinker and I also lack self control. N/A mouthwash, no cooking wine or vanilla extract, but I found a jug of rubbing alcohol stashed with other cleaning supplies. 70% denatured ethanol. So not the kind that turns you blind or a vegetable. Mixed it with water to not burn the shit out of my throat.
It tastes as godawful as I remember from like 5 years ago. Nothing like anything meant for human consumption even the very bottom shelf shite, but it gets the job done! My anxiety has miraculously vanished, I don't feel nauseous anymore, let's go.
Probably definitely unhealthy as fuck, but it saved me from having to go out in public today. That was my useless review of the day chairs
Tomorrow I might get my shit together... maybe
Or 3. Probably 3 weeks. Maybe 2. Definitely started on a Friday. But days don't mean much when you're unemployed. It's always the weekend, but it feels more like it's never weekend. Oh well.
I was doing pretty good for a while, then I was practically blacked out around the clock for 5 straight days, then s*ber for 2 whole weeks, then went right back to my bullshit about a liter vodka a day, sometimes random hard seltzers and beers on top for hydration, or something. Scary easy to accomplish if ya just drink whenever your eyes are open. I haven't been drinking water or eating but I had some potato chips recently. Stomach hasn't been feeling great but drinking more settles things.
Been 2 or 3 weeks of this shit but I'm finishing this bottle and won't buy more tomorrow morning and won't touch a drop for at least the remainder of May. I need to start being a productive part of society and get a fucking job. Maybe fast food or something. Not many options without a college degree. My place is a fucking mess and I smell like a sewage. Chairs
A dream in a dream in a dream.
Flashing lights and patterns through my eyelids. I had to crawl my way up to get to the top of my mattress. Weird fucking shit, so vivid, I can't even describe it, pretty sure I'm actually awake now though. It feels like it has been all night.
Except it's 12:16 am as I type this. Maybe I cooked my brain. I'm beyond exhausted, don't really want to go back to sleep though
I've gone weeks without having a singular non alcoholic beverage before. No water, coffee, tea, whatever. Diet soda or an energy drink as a mixer sometimes. Beer is often the most hydrating thing I drink. My piss was thick dark red/brown syrup for like 2 weeks after my last bender. Nasty
Is it possible? I drink way too much, admittedly well over the male recommended upper weekly limit of standard units. In a day, as a female. I've tried quitting or significantly cutting back, it didn't work, so I'm asking from a harm reduction perspective
I already eat a minimally processed diet to avoid additional inflammation. I take NAC, creatine, B-complex, D3, megadose vitamin C and magnesium. I maintain a healthy bodyweight. Anything else that can be useful?
Is it possible? I drink way too much, admittedly well over the male recommended upper weekly limit of standard units. In a day, as a female. I've tried quitting or significantly cutting back, it didn't work, so I'm asking from a harm reduction perspective
I already eat a minimally processed diet to avoid additional inflammation. I take NAC, creatine, B-complex, D3, megadose vitamin C and magnesium. I maintain a healthy bodyweight. Anything else that can be useful?