u/ss89898

My appetite has come back. I'm sleeping much better (despite the whacky dreams). But I find I can't do anything I used to take pleasure in anymore.

I force myself to go on long walks or a 20min hard run most days, just simply to kill the time. Strangley, the idea of doing my favourite down-time hobbies, playing video games and musical instruments, just give me nothing but grief.

I find myself just watching series' and scrolling through shorts instead. I care about playing music cause it has relevance to my job. I also care about my games cause I have pride in the achievements I make since I have a lot of online communities I'm involved in.

Did anyone else have experiences like this? Did it change? My theory is because both those hobbies can be a bit tedious and require concentration/effort so thats why I'm avoiding them. I'm afraid I'll rile myself up doing them and can't have something to bring me back down during/after.

The calculator on .gov says I could have up to £10k and £14k in London. I don't have any benefits or special circumstances, but no savings etc. I want to know if I'll actually get that.

It's really important when chosing my location as I can't live at home (family) when I study as it's too rural. I believe you need to accept the placement on the course before you find out how much you can get on your loan too?

-btw: don't worry about giving advice on whats feasable or not, I know I have no savings and how much rent/food etc. is. I have support from my family who want me to study asap. We just want to know how much I'm likely to get from the loan. Thanks

The calculator on .gov says I could have up to £10k and £14k in London. I don't have any benefits or special circumstances, but no savings etc.

I just wanted to know how realistic this is. It's really important when chosing my location as I can't live at home (family) when I study as it's too rural. I believe you need to accept the placement on the course before you find out how much you can get on your loan too?

Thanks

Slept Saturday night, I had my last one that morning.

Didn't sleep Sunday night - stayed awake 36hrs until Monday night.

Slept 13 hours on Monday night until Tuesday morning.

Didn't sleep last (Tues) night, now it's Wednesday morning I've been awake for 24hrs and I need to go to work.

This sucks. I can only eat once a day by force and I threw it up last night. I've quit before but it was never this bad. Was about 8 years ago though, stayed sober for 6 years. Maybe cause I'm older I can't deal with the transition as well? I'm quitting now after the last 2 years daily. Average about 1/2 grams a day. thanks

Living in capital cities with millions of people means I've never once in my life been found out. Or if I have, she didn't seem to care...(I don't think this ever happened though, I stay off the grid and just have a few close work friends my age in the city).

My type is usually girls with very little experience, if you make your dating pool large enough, you can find them. Weekly. I've probably had about 5 times where I've slept with a girl too fast, and thought, this girl gets around. But that was early! I've perfected the art of finding my type over the years.

I've had serious relationships too, only with women I've met IRL through work/college, First two were one year each when I was younger, the third lasted 3 years, she never knew, I lied and didn't feel great about it.

I'd like to settle down and get married in the next few years, cause I want kids and don't want to be an old Dad lol. I feel I have two options:

A) Lie to her/stretch the truth for her whole life, yet still be a great partner in every other way, give her my all etc.

B) Tell her the truth once I trust her (probably around 3 months, could be sooner though) and just hope for the best. After all, the truth will be that it's in the past, and after all my experience, she's the best!

Just wondering what you gals think? Btw, I won't accept settling down with a girl who is the same as me. I'm an awful hypocrite. I'll take option A over that any day of the week! She wouldn't find out. Any idea for an option C?

Thanks!

Attention? Likes, DM's?

I'm a guy. I like big boobs. I'm vain, but I still know personality will win in the end. But if I see this, I think the girl just wants attention, as well as presuming she is in fact getting the attention (and I like most people, don't really like this behaviour/desire in a potential partner).

If she wants to show she has big boobs, this can be done with any normal picture or tops which don't show 60% skin, or pics where the focus isn't on her boobs specificaly. In my opinion she would still get plenty of attention but the guys will have better intentions. Anyone agree?

Why are girls actually doing this? Thanks

I studied music but then went abroad for my first ever job to teach english second language. Music industry positions won't give me an interview top to bottom as I have no experience. Internships the same, I presume because its been 8 years since I graduated. In order to teach here, I need to obtain QTS AFTER I already have the job, but no one will hire me either.

I can't bring myself to work at a restaurant. I can't drive. I can't get any replies for hotel/administration work. It's been over 2 years of trying, 3 years unemployed - my family say this is a big reason. I live in a small town but apply for jobs in near by cities/towns, my parents would lend me the money to move/rent deposit. I have no idea what to do.

My parents say I need to do volunteer work, then I might get some better replies from my CV. The only volunteering positions that are communtable to me are the Oxfam shop, a cafe and a swimming pool shop. Will this really make a difference? It just makes me so depressed.