u/stabilizerdevamoli1

Im a huge piece of shit and now my life is ruined pls help me

Hello everyone so to cut things small I was a dropper for this year's neet I gave my 12th in 2025 and took a drop for neet thinking I would absolutely smash it but being a piece of crap I didn't do shi all I did was taken admission in coaching

and studied a bit till like august 2025 and after that I started lazing around I stopped going to the coaching and told my parents that I would study at home cause I had alr studied at the same coaching in 11th and 12th for neet but didn't do shi so basically I'm a fckn retard and i should probably be beaten by hot thick piece of rod and yeah so took a drop didn't study shi i fooled my parents whole of drop yr by locking my door and doomsrcolling all day long for like a whole year and my parents also understood that he's not gonna do shi.

Now we jump to now as of 19th August rn im sitting in my relatives home with tears in my eyes while typing this fckass post cause yk what did I do today i just got a withdrawal from BBA now u guys must be thinking how the fuck did this guy land on bba after studying for neet for like 3 yrs so the thing is after may my parents were after me saying that go find a college a course and do something in life which is very right from their side

And then what happened is that i got really fckn frustrated cause yk im a big duffle bag of shi,, and one day my father started suggesting me a career in commerce i mean this mba type career yk and I also got carried away despite having an absolute mad love for medicine and things happened and all that shi and I ended up in fckass BBA in a college around 2 3 hrs from my home I spent almost 15 days there before confessing to my parents that I'm not made for this career and I'm very much inclined towards medical field

And my parents being the great parents they have always been they didn't even question me back and got me withdrawed from that bba program but the thing is in the mean days I begged my mom to let me take another drop cause I'm very very sure that I wanna do mbbs only now they even agreed on pvt cause they wanted to see me happy but cause u guys know I'm a piece of shit I didn't even fckn qualify neet 😭🙏😭 and my parents can't even get me admitted into a pvt medical college ,, now my parents have paid 50k to book a seat in a pvt uni around 1 hr from my house for the course of Btech Biotechnology 😭🙏 which I have zero fckn interest in but I don't wanna fckn do it.

The thing is that I have zero fckn interest in this field I don't wanna work in a fckn lab my whole life and the thing is I also had pcm in 11th which i switched over to pcb only cause my concern was that i don't wanna do btech and here I am on the same place I was afraid of being at 3 yrs ago .

My parents didn't even care about the fees they paid the bba college cause they were like if u are not happy theres no need to do it and bruh the fees was like 2 lakh including hostel per semester 🙏😭🙏😭😭.

I don't know what the fck should I do now parents won't allow to take another drop and i don't think I will able to prep for neet alongside btech 😭🙏😭🙏 pls help me guys