u/stariixygc

this is not my first post here, but ill give a short recap anyway, ive been dealing with extreme heartburn every single night for the past 3 or 4 months now that mimics the sensation of heart attacks, recently i got my heart checked on a 2-week heart monitor and my heart is in great condition, this is entirely because of my stomach.

recently ive been struggling to eat, i get full extremely fast and i cant eat enough food during the day without feeling nauseous, im rapidly losing weight because of this and this last night i had enough, and powered through the nausea to eat a full meal (my first full meal in weeks), it didnt feel great after i was done, but i need to get my weight loss under control so that im not putting myself at risk of anymore health issues.

its around 4am, i usually get severe heartburn around 9pm-5am off and on, but right now theres very minimal pain, my stomach burns a little bit and my esophagus feels a bit stuffy but my chest feels strangely okay, im not dealing with any stomach-induced heart palpitations either, this is the first night in months that my chest hasnt hurt much if at all, and the only thing i did different was eat twice as much as i normally do for dinner, it still wasnt enough food for the day but it was enough in the moment and im starting to think that keeping my stomach MORE full is helping

maybe this kind of stuff was common knowledge but im not an expert on GERD or other similar stomach issues, im trying not to rely too much on google because i dont want to feed my health anxiety, but im really proud of myself for making this discovery and i hope that fixing my eating habits and eating more normal amounts of food instead of almost nothing at all does something for me in the longrun, im probably gonna feel sick at first becuase of the early satiety stuff but im really trying to do whatever i can to make my life feel better

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I'm not really sure how to explain this, I came up with this idea a few years ago and it recently came back to me, so the characters for a fangan im writing aren't original, they're original in the sense that they are my ocs, I made them, but they're all from another story I wrote that has nothing to do with danganronpa or anything. I need to finish my first story before fully diving into this one (I have the entire plot, but it's a visual novel and takes time to code and make art for), but my idea basically was that my fangan is a non-canon au of my main story where AFTER all of my characters died in canon, they were eventually reborn together some however many years later and grew up to be Ultimates with no recollection of their past lives or peers, they get trapped in a killing game together, and start to slowly uncover each of their past lives through "memory injections" (similar to flashback lights from drv3 but these are PAST lives, not their current ones, and it would be a narrower group of people recieving them), that bit would be directly referencing my original story I'm writing, and it would obviously end up being a motive in some form and impact how the characters interact each other (character A murders character B because character A got murdered by character B in the first story and didn't want a repeat of her previous fate), obviously the whole concept of past lives are incredibly unrealistic but like is anything in danganronpa realistic 😭🙏, I thought it'd be a cool idea to build on, I have way too many ocs as is and keeping track of them is becoming hard so I thought "hey why not reuse 16 of my prexisting characters", but I'd like a second opinion before I build on this more, I've never seen anyone do this so I'm not sure if its good or not.

i started taking zoloft in 2023 after some unfortunate events in my life and dealing with mental health issues for years, it was doing me well and i felt pretty at peace after a while (with the compromise of emotional numbness), i stopped taking it in 2024 11 months after i started because i felt like it wasnt doing anything for me anymore and i was "okay", well turns out my mental health slowly started to spiral again, and by the time february of this year rolled around, i developed a really severe panic disorder (multiple attacks per night every night and 2 landed me in the emergency room because i thought i was dying), and now im back on zoloft 50mg, aside from my mental health i have been having really bad health problems the past few months that are still impacting me (but im working on it, bless my dad for being pushy with doctors otherwise this wouldve taken way longer), but that anxiety definitely heightened it all and made me think i was going to pass away every single night, i was still going to deal with my health problems due to other factors in my life but im of the fullhearted belief that i shouldve stayed on my zoloft and maybe upped the dosage instead of quitting, i feel like things would be slightly better for me now if i did, im starting to be at peace again (to some extent, i still have anxiety issues but no more panic) but the last few months have been hell on earth and i wish 16yo me realized that feeling generally well for a few weeks and quitting doesnt mean the mental health problems ive been dealing with for years prior were cured or fixed yet (especially since i didnt and still dont have access to therapy), there was definitley room for improvement and im gonna work on reminding myself of that a few months down the line when my meds start to really kick in and i think to myself "maybe i should stop taking this"