u/starzzang

i had c-diff over 8 months ago, still dealing with some days where i'm hunched over in pain. i have wayyyy more good days than bad but when those bad days hit, i am MISERABLE. what do you all do for your pain? i just bought IBgard to try but it's soooo expensive. has anyone else on here used IBgard and it has helped them? i also smoke the devil's lettuce whenever the flares hit, it offers relief in the moment but it gets bad again in hours.

i need a miracle right now. my life has been absolutely miserable these past couple of years and i'm really struggling to stay afloat. i've used luck, wish, life subliminals for YEARS and nothing, or reverse results. i'm really losing hope that my life will change for the better. if anyone's life has changed for the better through subliminals, please give me suggestions. i'm really tired and about to just give up.

i started a new job as a laundry attendant in a hotel about 3 days ago, and the amount of poop that's on the washcloths and even pillowcases has been insane. i wear thick gloves when sorting the laundry but i feel like that's not enough. i also scrub my hands afterwards but i still feel gross and contaminated. i had c diff 7 months ago and the thought of getting it again terrifies me every single day. i'm so scared i'm gonna get it again... am i gonna be okay?

i have a gemini 12th house stellium, with saturn in there. my whole life has just felt cursed. my entire life has just been taking loss after loss after loss. everyone in my life ends up betraying me or hating me, i was bullied all throughout school to the point where i had to drop out at 16. even bullying in the workplace. my whole life was spent lonely, i also deal with a ton of family issues. i was diagnosed with cancer two years ago at only 21 and have been struggling with my health ever since. plus recently had to fight off several severe infections back to back, and several hospitalizations. plus dealing with horrible mental health issues like MDD and psychosis. i wanted to mention that because i heard 12th house is connected to hospitals? i don't know a lot, but i do know that i think i'm doomed in this life. not to sound too pessimistic but i can't even remember anything good coming out of my life, genuinely. is this gonna be my whole life? this placement just feels like hell to me. is there positives to having a 12th house stellium, especially saturn?

i'm not talking about the live animated album art. all of my album art look fuzzy and like they're all stuck at 500x500 px. i've tried clearing the cache, reinstalling, updating images, turning off cellular data saver, and nothing. is anyone else dealing with this, and is there a fix? i'm using apple music on a samsung s25 plus.

what do i do? i have way more good days than bad now but when the bad days hit, they're BAD. it's literal hell... is this my life now? i was a completely healthy 23 year old GI-wise until i got this horrible infection, and now i feel like i'll never be back to myself. it's making me incredibly depressed. these episodes are nothing like the c diff infection but they tend to last for HOURS and i'm just utterly exhausted. i've tried everything. florastor started making the flares a lot worse and more frequent so i stopped taking it. i started drinking probiotic shots and drinking kombucha but every probiotic i take makes it worse. what do i do...? weed is the only thing that helps the pain but i don't want to have to constantly depend on it.