u/suspiciouscherry11

Basically im my village was organized a party that everyone were invited. I wanted to come but i was scared to go alone so i asked my friends Melanie (name changed) do she wanna come with me. She said that she thinks so but still its not 100% sure. I was ALREADY rlly happy untill yesterday. I writted her message some hours before is IT still okay with her and she said that she dunno yet. I told her could she message me yes or no later. She didnt respond me at all and today i saw milion od stories of her and my "friends" having fun without me. I genuoely cant trust em anymore they piekły talked shit about me how WEIRD i am.

I always thought i have lots od friends irl. But i start to REALIZE Smth. no ONE mostly invite me to HUGE ahh meetings, im always scared to go to them by my own Even tho everyone always says that "im always welcomed". Like everyone knows i have little anxiety when IT comes to hang out with people do why its hard to lit walk with me?? I thought yall like me or smth

I just ruined my friendship cuz im a loser. My friend was outside with our little group, i used to invite her everywhere mostly do she DID the same to me, not today ofc. There were all ppl i liked except me ofc.

I was super jealous but i didnt write to her anything cuz i dont wanna be VIEWED like these "i need to be everywhere and anywhere!!" Girlies. But some hours ago she keeps asking me what's would i do in some situation she had today, i told her i would CRY. I was dry to her cuz i was still mad at her. She asked me am i offended and i said no and she said that she dont care about IT so i said that ofc she wouldnt. Then we had a Tiny drama. The problem is she is a hard person and its REALLY hard to get back friends with her. I Even feel a little relieved? But i Will spend the Whole summer alone..