are my eyes ok
I went to an eye doctor a bit ago because I’ve been noticing varying symptoms that are seemingly worsening but the doctor kinda just brushed off my concerns looked at my eyes and said they’re healthy but they really don’t feel healthy and anxiety is not subsiding so I just want to list some of these symptoms I’ve been experiencing for a few months and hope someone can give me some guidance
so I’ve always had astigmatism but I feel like it’s gotten worse, distant bright lights glow dramatically and have a ring of stretching lines
I feel so sensitive to lights I feel overstimulated by the end of the day and my eyes feel strained often times especially outside and it doesn’t help I live in a desert state and I have a history of horrible migraines that I believe are mostly caused my light exposure oddly though they’ve slowed down in my late teenage years as well as chronic headaches I used to have effectively constantly
Lights also leave stains in my vision in the shape of the light- not even lights on the brighter end just generally like when I’m watching tv and look away at my ceiling I can see the shape of the tv as an odd shadow and when there’s high contrast between lighting and shadows the same thing happens and if I get a glimpse of a particularly bright light it stays in my vision for a bit relative to the brightness and room contrast
When I close my eyes and cover them with my hand to block all light I often see bright shapes that slowly dissipate- there are multiple types though- some are light induced as mentioned, some are just vaguely colored blobs that move around and fade and these I always see as I’m trying to go to sleep, some are flashing outlines of circles that spread to the peripherals and eventually disappear sometimes they last longer than other times and sometimes there’s a lot or not much they’re not always circles though that’s just a common shape but regardless of shape they do the same thing, and some are small white dots that only exist for a moment but are effectively always appearing I can usually see a couple at a time
sometimes I struggle to focus on things but not like my vision is blurry I don’t need a prescription if I’m focusing on something I see just fine I just get distracted by vague movement in my vision that’s a staticy feeling mostly in the center of my vision and sometimes it’s more intense than other times maybe if I look at something specific like when I look at my closed blinds while it’s light out and there’s some light shining through the blinds then I look at the wall next to it the static intensifies dramatically but not for long and other distractions include occasional splotches of color appearing in my peripherals and deep black or bright white shapes appearing briefly also in my peripherals and eye floaters have become incredibly prominent in sunlight as well as small black circler floaters that started showing up a couple months ago those haven’t really progressed though and when I told my doctor he said it was just protein build ups but I’m afraid they’re part of my retina
sometimes I see horizontal lines in my vision as well like when I’m reading large text on a screen such as this post but they can appear without any apparent reason however not often
something I’ve struggled with since I was young is my eyes falling out of focus and I have to bring them back to focus I have gotten better at controlling that though but feeling like I constantly have to keep them in focus adds to the straining feeling
and this is maybe not entirely related but since im saying all this might as well be, I have a very difficult time sleeping i said earlier i see colorful blobs moving around my vision while im trying to sleep and when i do fall asleep its hard to stay asleep if im not excessively tired and I especially struggle through rem sleep even if I still feel very tired and all thought the day and ias m trying to get to sleep my eyes twitch open as i keep them closed and i usually have to push my brows down somehow to keep them relaxed and closed this doesn’t happen for a while after i wake up though and starts as my eyes adjust
Most of these symptoms are at their peek near bedtime and after i wake up and i have made lifestyle changes the biggest one I haven’t that I feel is hindering me is screen time especially at night but I’ve been working it however with all change these symptoms have not really subsided ever
this is all the information I can think of right now but if I think of other things I’ll put it in the comments and if you have questions please ask I really just need guidance right now and need motivation to see another doctor that will actually help me