u/sweet-pigeon000

My most beautiful girl Kaya passed away 2 days ago. And I don’t know how to live anymore. I have other pets but I am having such a hard time doing anything else. I just want to cry and die so this pain can go away.
My biggest things are missing her and guilt for some of the decisions I took.
Where I live most pets are not good. She was only 3 years old and got sick, so I took her to a local vet who said he SUSPECTED blood parasite started the treatment and she got back to normal in 3 days. another vet who was SENIOR I contacted looked at all of her tests and said he doesn’t see any and that I should discontinue the treatment and start something else. 5 After that she just crashed again and was sick for 2 weeks where I eventually had to put her down 2 days ago. I just don’t have the will to live anymore. I hate life and everything init. I just can’t wait to d1e. I never ever want another cat again because I feel like I’ll be betraying her and there’s no way I can love another and have the same bond with another one. I feel disgusted even thinking of giving the same love to another one other than my girl Kaya. I just wish I had continued the treatment maybe things would’ve been different. Now I just wish for my death.