u/sydthelemonkid

hey babes,
within the past year i’ve had to face my diagnosis head on (only getting officially diagnosed 6 months ago) and it’s kinda crazy it’s been so long and time just goes by so fast when ur chronically crying and in bed and doing nothing (unemployed rn) 🥹

in the mornings right when i wake up, i am extremely dysregulated. i wake up out of breath and shaking. often, when i do stupid stuff the night before (usually interpersonal fuck ups) i wake up and start thinking about it and get paralyzed. in the mornings, it is MUCH harder for me to practice skills when these feelings arise, bc of how immediate and overwhelming they are, and also bc ive just woken up so my mind literally isn’t all there. this has lead to a lot of situations where i wake up crying and crying and can’t help myself. when im away from my fp, waking up and then checking my phone almost always messes me up and makes my heart rate go crazy.

i guess im wondering if any of yall have morning practices that regulate you and calm you down a little ? set you up for the day?

i’ve decided to not check my phone until ive had my coffee, which literally forces me to get out of bed and moving a little bit. i’ve also been wanting to incorporate some morning journalling i can do from bed with my coffee, but am unsure what to specifically write about. gratitude pages? affirmations? i’ve also considered a morning guided mediation, but haven’t found a good one yet.

any advice or personal experience is much appreciated! i hope you all are taking care of urselfs i love you all 🖤 this shit is brutal but we are so strong for getting up every morning and facing it