u/tattiesbljt

I have been an MC patient for a few years now and found my absolute favourite strain a few months back - Cherry Cheesecake.

I found it so uplifting and motivating, I've never vaped weed and been able to jump up and clean the entire house afterwards. I tend to choose different strains every month and they've all just been kinda the same, but Cherry Cheesecake felt like a breakthrough.

Unfortunately it completely disappeared and I've been longing for it 😭 has anyone tried anything they've found similar to cherry cheesecake?

I know. I'm a piece of shit.

Been extremely depressed passed few weeks. My boyfriend only cleans when I ask him to which causes many arguments and today the messy house had me stressed while he sat playing games with his friends instead of doing any housework or tackling his mountain if dirty clothes as usual. I went to take a shower and got cat litter on my feet which was a sensory nightmare, went to grab the cordless hoover but it was dead because he didn't put it on charge the rare time he actually used it and it made me so overwhelmed I burst. We argued and I just went into a meltdown and was a crying mess.

He has never tried to understand autism and often pushes and pushes until I can't take it anymore (will literally chase me around the house while I'm desperately trying to be alone) and go into a meltdown.

Well during today's meltdown he started calling me "Bipolar *name*"

It just made me lose it. He knows I am off my medication and struggling with depression massively. He knows I am diagnosed with Autism. He has called me bipolar in the past to hurt me and being dismissed as "bipolar" yet again just made me so beyond sad I saw red.

I started hitting him screaming at him that I'm fucking autistic and he's a stupid piece of shit. But really I am the piece of shit for hitting him.

We own a house and 2 cats together and I know our relationship is irreparable after today. I have no family and I don't have any friends I feel like I can reach out to, I genuinely don't think I can survive my life falling apart and all of the change I'm about to face. I am so ashamed and disappointed in myself.

So, so done 😭