u/tenacious_mama

Something I am working on with my therapist is figuring out why I can't seem to accept my bipolar 2 diagnosis. I mean - I can tell a random cashier I have it, but when it comes to accepting it and being kind to myself, it's just not there. I always feel like I am "too much", a burden, faking, etc. She actually tells me I don't tell her enough, especially about my SI. Apparently I minimize like crazy. I don't really know where this comes from except my dad had bipolar as well and growing up my mom was simply mean about it. Very uncaring. Very condemning. And he ultimately died by his own hands. Maybe that's a clear cut "why" right there, although I didn't really even considering this connection until the last week or so. Do you have any thoughts? How does this work out in your life?

Anyone have an inoperable fuel gauge? I know to simply fuel at 300 miles, but I haven't had a working fuel gauge in years. It shows full after filling, and goes to just below half a tank before stopping - and doesn't go any further. She's got her miles - just 100 until 300k. But if this could be an easy fix, I'd love that!

I tend to just not eat but then at dinner I am so hungry and make unhealthy choices while also eating a LOT. I'd like to shift to eating more around noonish and then a bit less later in the day at dinner.

I do realize it can take a while to start noticing a difference, truly. But I had an AHI of 36.2 before therapy and it’s now down to 0.7 with mask and machine. Wouldn’t that make me feel better fast? I’m so desperate to feel more awake in the morning.

I have saved for years as a single mom of teens and we are finally taking our big family vacation. We haven’t booked yet, but this date (Jan 31-Feb 7) is the one that seems to be working best for our schedules. Now, I’m worried that the water will be too cold. We are in a northern state so we’re used to freezing, but I’ve worked so hard for this trip and if the water temperature ruins it I will be heartbroken. (I really really wanted the cruise out of NOLA that stopped at both of Carnival’s islands but we couldn’t make Thanksgiving or Christmas work, which is when they are.) Anyway. Back to water temps. Can you advise??

I’m not sure what to think but I am just terrible about having people stay overnight at my home. It stresses me out more than anything else. I wish I knew how to fix this…

Chatted with a friend who said she’s never once thought about dying in a way related to self. I can’t even imagine that. I see a tall structure and think “is that tall enough to die from?” I see a huge lake and think about drowning. I see a ton of pills and think “how many would it take?” Guessing none of that is normal haha

Hey everyone. I am so tired of being 300 points and under-tall. I’m uncomfortable. I hurt. But I use food as a coping tool for depression. My therapist keeps saying I need to fix the root cause of why I eat before it’s worth doing surgery, and if I don’t I will gain it all back. I’m sure that’s probably true. But I haven’t been able to lose another way. I feel like this is the tool I need. Looking for feedback. Thank you.