u/tesukiii

Hiii I’m 22F looking for some gfs to hang out with that like doing fun activities. I’m not looking for a bf lol idk why i have to identify that but i am in a relationship so stop messaging me about that. I wanna go out more and do more within the week. A bit about me: I’m an apprentice hairdresser who works full time and loves going out on adventures. I love going on nature walks and going to the beach but i also love going out the pub or having a casual drink. I’m pretty much down for whatever :)

Ok… so i have basically known her for 5 years and we have been very close since we became friends (i did know her prior but we didnt properly become friends until later on) the problem is we are both in relationships. Now look, dont get me wrong i love my boyfriend and would choose him over anything. When i am with my friend though i feel every problem of mine slip away in the same way that i feel with him. I am physically attracted to her and also love everything about her. Maybe i just need to get this out because i cant do anything about it and honestly having a 3 way relationship is ridiculous to me, especially because she has been in her relationship for like 7 years and i have no interest nor do i like her partner. Anyways, this might only be me wanting to experiment and try new things as these feelings are only new, we had a falling out a few months ago but when she was out of my life i realised how much i liked her in my life and we are honestly so similar with all of our hobbies and interests. Okay maybe i was lying, when i was with my ex I also had feelings for her that i had been hiding. But realistically what am i gonna do? Tell my bestfriend thats been in a relationship for 7 years that i like her? I like my life with my partner now. I feel horrible though because as i have said i love my boyfriend more than anything like i live with him and spend all of my life with him and i couldnt bare to lose it over something like this. I guess i just wanna know im not the only one who has felt this way before and seriously i dont want to do anything to change my life rn but i have had dreams about kissing her and stuff. Also i am bisexual but sometimes i think i may just be lesbian but because i have dated men my whole life thats the only thing i know and i hate change which is why i am still only dating men. Yeah cheers that was a weird one ok bye.