Has anyone else suffered a personality change following an episode? I used to be a kind loving person (despite depression and anxiety) who wouldn’t hurt anyone on purpose.
Now I hate life, people, activities. I don’t recognize myself. It feels like I have a brain tumor or something.
Has anyone else suffered a personality change following an episode? I used to be a kind loving person (despite depression and anxiety) who wouldn’t hurt anyone on purpose.
Now I hate life, people, activities. I don’t recognize myself. It feels like I have a brain tumor or something.
Fuck my stupid shit life. I hate everyone I’ve ever met. I hate everyone who’s tried to care about me. Everyone who’s kept me going for this fucking long. I have a BAD LIFE. I am a BAD PERSON. I am going to KILL MYSELF and the only reason I haven’t yet is cause I am a procrastinating piece of shit.
I do not care if my family is sad that I am dead. I hope the people who cut me off when I was manic get to experience manic psychosis for themselves and see how it feels to have their support system gossip about them and gaslight them and treat them like shit when they’re scared and paranoid and just need someone to tell them what’s going on.
Fuck me for existing. Fuck you for existing. Life is a fucking curse. What do you MEAN I’m supposed to “get better” and go to school or get a stupid job? I’m supposed to waste my day away doing something I’m going to hate (I do not enjoy anything anymore) to support myself in some shitty apartment I’ll probably have to share with a stranger I don’t like just to keep myself housed until I die.
I wake up every day and immediately become filled with anger that I’ve lived to see another day. Then I uncontrollably relive all the pain and abandonment this stupid fucking disorder has brought into my life. Then I mourn the joy I used to feel. Then I LAY IN FUCKING BED for 23 hours in and out of consciousness only getting up to piss and eat.
I wish ill upon EVERYBODY. I hope you’re having a shit night and a shit life too. Fuck you.
Lithium caused dandruff on my face. Has this happened to anyone else?