u/thecrowsarehere

Had a really nice lager at Kelham pride this weekend. It was from the bar in Peddlers. Does anyone know what it might be called? Think they were only selling one lager.

I'm 29F. I recently got my cholesterol results (all measurements are in mmol/L and mg/dL)

Total cholesterol: 6.2 / 240

HDL cholesterol: 1.38 / 50

Non HDL cholesterol: 4.8 / 186

LDL cholesterol: 3.8 / 147

Triglycerides (fasting): 2.5 / 97

Ratio: 4.5

I was really concerned as I have a healthy diet (vegetarian, high fibre, low sat fat), I don't smoke and rarely drink, and I regularly exercise. And I'm only 29.

But my GP wasn't overly concerned...he said numbers like mine aren't unusual. But he agreed to prescribe me 20mg atorvastatin because of my anxiety about it and confusion as to which lifestyle factors to change.

Was my GP correct to prescribe me statins? Now I'm anxious I pushed the GP to prescribe me medicine that I don't need. Obviously I don't want to be on statins unnecessarily and I'm worried about side effects.

I'm going for a check up in 3 months time.

I came to realise yesterday after a visit from my mother that I don't feel loved, or even liked, by my family anymore, especially when compared to my older sister.

For context, I am diagnosed with autism. I have a long history of mental illness, including hospitalisations and attempts. I haven't been able to work for two years because of this. I can barely leave the house. I don't have a circle of friends, only my partner. In comparison, my sister has a very important and impressive job, recently bought a home, has loads of friends and an exciting life. I know how self pitying this sounds, but it's the honest truth.

Whenever I see my Mum, she doesn't seem to take an interest in me. She never asks me questions beyond the surface level greetings of hello how are you. She spends the whole time talking about my sibling, or herself, or her friends, or some random person, but never seems interested in me, her daughter, who she's come to see. She's more interested in my partner than me. This has become so much more obvious since I became unable to work. It's like I have no value as her child anymore and they are all ashamed. There's also a lot of very subtle digs at me. It feels like she visits just to make these digs at me.

Meanwhile my parents see my sister much more frequently. Her and my mum do nice things together, like go on really nice holidays together at least once a year. My sister never sees me or even contacts me. Nothing from my Dad either, who hasn't come to visit me for a long time. (I have little money for train fare to go to them and they know this).

For my sister's 30th birthday they made a big fuss and had a family get together. My 30th is coming soon and no one suggested doing the same for me, I had to suggest it myself, which was painful.

This is despite them knowing how much I'm struggling with my mental health. There is little effort. My mum will occasionally visit me, and I think maybe this time it will be nice and she'll make me feel loved. Just to feel bullied the whole time. That just happened the past few days so I feel very raw and hurt so sorry if this is rambling.

My partner is in denial but it's so obvious to me that they are ashamed of me. My partner has spent time with my family without me being present, and she said they don't talk about me. I think they'd prefer to pretend their autistic unemployed child didn't exist.