u/thisuseribipolar

Im a lesbian trying to find my style like i’m not feminine, but I’m not masculine and I don’t wanna be feminine but I also don’t wanna be masculine and I’m just confused on what I am because whenever I’m masculine, I’m overly masculine and then when I’m feminine it just feels overly feminine and I don’t know what to do and this is so difficult because when I’m too masculine, I feel like no lesbian is attracted to that but then when I’m too feminine, I’m like uncomfortable in a way

So. Just to clarify I'm 18
My brother broke up up with his bisexual girlfriend and me and her were really close like not together or some weird shit she was like my best friend and she used to take care of me make me dinner and stuff but my brother cheated on her a few months ago after and she left him but we still talk from time to time and I really miss her their relationship damaged me rather then him And she taxed me today saying hey. Princess and I getting butterflies but i know she probably didn't mean it like that but my mind keeps on going back to the times where she'd talk to me and play with me my hair or hold my hand and I feel like I'm developing a crush on her and I liked her even when my brother was with her not because her actions only but also her looks her personality and there was one time when she was with my brother she came into my room and I was asleep in the middle of the bed because I had fell asleep watching TikToks on my phone and she came in and though I was joking with her fake sleeping and she realised I wasn’t and sat on the bed and stroked my hair moving it out my eyes and I was half asleep drifting and I felt butterflies like I wanted kiss her I wanted her to stay and keep on holding me

Is this fucked?

So. Just to clarify I’m 18
My brother broke up up with his bisexual girlfriend and me and her were really close like not together or some weird shit she was like my best friend and she used to take care of me make me dinner and stuff but my brother cheated on her a few months ago after and she left him but we still talk from time to time and I really miss her their relationship damaged me rather then him
And she taxed me today saying hey. Princess and I getting butterflies but i know she probably didn’t mean it like that but my mind keeps on going back to the times where she’d talk to me and play with me my hair or hold my hand and I feel like I’m developing a crush on her

How much do translators / interpreters/tutors make in UAE because i was thinking of becoming pne and expanding to Qatar and the UAE