u/throwaway010168

For context I am 16FTM and I have been groomed ever since I was 5. I feel like if I were born a boy things would be different. Like maybe they wouldn’t pick on me because of my boobs or the fact that I started puberty early. I know I would still get groomed, but I feel like while I am a boy misogyny has affected my life so badly growing up because of the grooming. I just wanna cry into someone’s arms.

TW for graphic/sexual language

I hate you

I’ve always hated you. The moment you laid your disgusting hands on my body I hated you. The moment you pierced my body with your sharp fingers I hated you. I adulted too early, had online encountered with men twice my age before I even knew division. You saw a lamb alone in a field while you, the wolf, were hungry. You saw an innocent being resting while you had the most horrible thoughts. I had to beg for you to stop grooming me, I was crying because I had to fake an orgasm for you to finally stop. You selfish prick. You disgusting thing. You don’t deserve to be called a human. But animals don’t do that either.

Taking photos until I was physically exhausted, going into the school bathroom to take videos, calling late at night. You did this to a fucking 13 year old girl. Now that I am a boy and no longer identify as a girl I feel even more disgusted. That one of my own could do something so heinous. I watch the news and see my own committing heinous acts against children everyday. Why? What’s the point of all of this?

But a part of me misses you too. Oh how I miss you. I need you in my life. I cry to sleep thinking about you. But you abandoned me right after I send photos? You selfish prick.

This shit has happened up to 20 times, it keeps going on day after day. I’m sick and tired of people treating me like this everyday but I cannot say no, it’s like that word was taken out of my vocabulary.

You got this pretty boy thinking that he’s enslaved.

So I guess I am a slut

For context I’ve been groomed and exploited up to 20 times and I have a freeze response whenever people ask anything sexual so I usually would just end up doing whatever they would ask. But recently I got the courage to start blocking weirdos :)

Sorry that I keep posting here. It’s just that the people are nice here.

So for context I am 16f almost 17 and I’ve been groomed and exploited 17 times since the age of 5 but the online grooming started when I was 8. I would often get exploited like 4 times a week recently. The reason why I lowkey do this on purpose is because I am lonely and depressed a lot and also my bipolar and PTSD makes me hypersexual. I just wanted to vent, thank you.

TW for heavy language

Go fuck yourself you fucker. I hate you. You ruined my life. I am forever conditioned because of you. I have PTSD from you. I was a slut for years because of you. I hate you so so much. You made me dissociate every single day because I lost my innocence at 8 because of y’all. Now I can’t even function without getting groomed anymore. I know damn well I might get pedos in my DM’s telling me to off myself because of this post because they are upset that I called them out on their grossness.

TW for grooming, slut shaming and SA

For context I am 16 almost 17. I was groomed almost my whole life being groomed and abused until I was programmed to believe I was a “””slut””” for men. I almost became a sex worker three times, I had a man who lived a hour away from me threaten to SA me. I am gonna try to go to therapy to understand why I am like this, why I keep spinning around in circles. I have a crush on someone online and I want to be there with them.

Also to all the men in girls DM’s who get little girls nudes and block them right after, I hope you know that you are literally traumatizing so much kids for life. I am hypersexual because I was groomed since 8.

TW for grooming, self harm and possible exploitation

So for context I am 16 and I was groomed and exploited and abused online and offline throughout my entire childhood. It was so bad that I had to move school districts because peers would keep sexually harassing me. I am kinda wondering if my grooming story was “””normal””” or if it was some grand conspiracy. 13-16 was probably when it hit hard. I was groomed a lot before that too but it was mostly one off stuff like Omegle and Discord. When I turned 16 a group of people running an account on Reddit messaged me because I vented about missing being SA’d because I had a LOT of conditioning due to trauma. They made me fill out a body chart and also was gonna put me on a diet and work out plan and was encouraging ED’s. They made me do voice recordings on Discord and saying lines like “I like being abused” and creepy stuff like that. Then they ghosted me out of nowhere. Another man made me do tasks and if I didn’t do them correctly he would make me harm myself as punishment. Another person messaged me and tried to get me into sex work and I was about to do it but I backed out on the last second. In total I had like 17 abusers irl and online.

Hi i am 16 and have diagnosed OCD. I noticed I kept getting those reels that say “please stop and repost to boost to help _____” and I have no problem with that at all in fact I literally had done the same thing before. However it feels like I am a bad person because I cannot donate and sometimes skip the videos because it’s too triggering. I have PTSD and also physically disabled so I cannot work a minimum wage job because it involves a lot of standing so my only source of money is an allowance from my mom which I’m grateful for. I try to donate when I can but I feel like I am scared that I’m not doing enough and I would spend all day thinking about it. It’s especially bad when the videos would often say stuff like “scroll if you don’t care about people” or stuff like that or would have a child crying. What do I do?

TW for grooming

Yes I do have a therapist

(Hoping that Reddit doesn’t ban me AGAIN for this post)

I am 16 and I am currently trying to get my life together. I just left an abusive “””relationship””” with a 28 year old man online, he was my 17th abuser. I’ve been abused since I was 5. And before anyone victim blames me it was because I was 11-13 during most of the abuse and I was extremely gullible and trusting. For some reason I get urges to talk to grown men online, like whenever I get creepy DM’s I get urges to talk to them and start something again. I also get urges to start doing sex work because my brain for some reason thinks that sexual attention from grown men is good

Idk why I am like this I am just wired that way and it’s weird and I am trying to undo the conditioning

What’s worse is that sometimes I get DM’s from men saying something like “Aww you miss being abused? Well if you ever want that again message me~” and it’s disgusting.

I am 16 and I finally left my 17th abusive relationship after being abused for so long from multiple men since I was 8. Reddit banned me from “sexualizing minors” because I shared that when I was 5 I was SA’d . They never banned the groomer, a 28 year old man, who said how much he wished I was 11 so that he can groom me more. I don’t know why they banned me and not the groomer. I am not sure if I am IP banned or not. Sorry if isn’t related just please try to spread the word because it genuinely feels like I am being silenced rn