u/throwaway_toxiclove

my whole life I’ve never been this late. Did home pregnancy test, both of which showed negative. Gosh I am so stressed and scared

This guy who dumped me over a year ago messaged me out of blue today. The break up was pretty nasty and I was heart broken for a while. He didn’t even give me a proper closure other than the usual yada yada that he needs to focus on his responsibilities.

Today, he messaged me saying he misses me and still has feelings for me. He dreamt of the night we stayed together. He said he has been addicted to my body since our first time and nobody else feels the same. He said he has been single cause nobody else has the same body or my curly hair.

Gosh, I’ve never felt so disrespected before. Idc if he misses me or not, I hate how he objectified me. Saying he misses our relationship would’ve been at least respectful. I feel uncomfortable. I’ve moved on and I am in a healthy happy relationship. It feels so wrong to remind me of intimate moments in my past which I’ve forgotten.

And he said I know you can’t forget that too. Like he is some seggs gawd or something. That’s when I got triggered and replied “Tbh I forgot everything. Cause I’ve made much beautiful memories with my boyfriend and sometimes I feel like he is just my imagination cause he’s just that amazing ❤️ And I also added, I only hate you for the dumping part, I am actually grateful that your break up is the reason I met the most incredible boy in the whole world”.

He was trying to manipulate me with the good old compliments. Like omg you’re still so gorgeous. Is it okay if I go through your pics whenever I miss you? And how he messed up. “Remember our first kiss at my home? You wore a crop top that day”
And I asked him to fuck off.

My blood is boiling cause he had the audacity to think of me when he had some hrny a** dream, had no one to tap and his desperate a*s thought of me. I feel so disrespected.

I actually wanted to give him a reality check on how bad his game was. I was actually going to sacrifice pleasure over love for him while we were in a relationship cause he sucked. But my boyfriend asked me not to do that so I didn’t.

This guy who dumped me over a year ago messaged me out of blue today. The break up was pretty nasty and I was heart broken for a while. He didn’t even give me a proper closure other than the usual yada yada that he needs to focus on his responsibilities.

Today, he messaged me saying he misses me and still has feelings for me. He dreamt of the night we stayed together. He said he has been addicted to my body since our first time and nobody else feels the same. He said he has been single cause nobody else has the same body or my curly hair.

Gosh, I’ve never felt so disrespected before. Idc if he misses me or not, I hate how he objectified me. Saying he misses our relationship would’ve been at least respectful. I feel uncomfortable. I’ve moved on and I am in a healthy happy relationship. It feels so wrong to remind me of intimate moments in my past which I’ve forgotten.

And he said I know you can’t forget that too. Like he is some seggs gawd or something. That’s when I got triggered and replied “Tbh I forgot everything. Cause I’ve made much beautiful memories with my boyfriend and sometimes I feel like he is just my imagination cause he’s just that amazing ❤️ And I also added, I only hate you for the dumping part, I am actually grateful that your break up is the reason I met the most incredible boy in the whole world”.

He was trying to manipulate me with the good old compliments. Like omg you’re still so gorgeous. Is it okay if I go through your pics whenever I miss you? And how he messed up. “Remember our first kiss at my home? You wore a crop top that day”
And I asked him to fuck off.

My blood is boiling cause he had the audacity to think of me when he had some hrny a** dream, had no one to tap and his desperate a*s thought of me. I feel so disrespected.

I actually wanted to give him a reality check on how bad his game was. I was actually going to sacrifice pleasure over love for him while we were in a relationship cause he sucked. But my boyfriend asked me not to do that so I didn’t.

I have this friend who is set to get married in couple of months and she flirts with attractive men with her eyes.

In all the years I’ve been friends with her, I’ve been on numerous trips with her and she always attracts male attention. Idk how she’s able to do that. She’s pretty, charming and a social butterfly but I don’t agree with what she’s doing.

It’s quiet normal for guys to check out girls but if she happen to find him attractive she give em the gaze until they initiate conversations with her.

I am new to how this whole thingy works. I have a boyfriend I don’t plan on doing that. I get compliments for the way I look (lately not so good) my whole life and not once I’ve seen guys trynna do this with me or rest of our pretty friends. I am not like jealous that she gets lots of male attention or anything. I am just curious on how she happened to be a dudes magnet.

Yesterday, we were on a train and she was helping some attractive dude with his luggage, that he ended up sitting next to me and was kinda following us until we went to some restaurant.

Every day feels the same like I am suffocating. Stuck in an IT job with zero passion. The very same job I worked hard to get in to but ended up hating to the core. It would’ve been much easier if I am to form any connections at work.

Most of my friendships faded out after college.

Desperately want to hit the gym as freedom and money made junk my best friend and it is affecting my body. I want that fab body I used to had.

Want to travel, see places but I don’t know what’s stopping me, my mental health maybe…

I used to be a person with lots of hobbies but I’ve lost em all in the way. I always wanted to learn to play guitar, ride bike, get a fit body, model for photography like I used to and finish whatever I was writing about and make that short film dream come true. But I am put on a leash which I can’t figure a way out.

I work for around 12 hrs only to come down crashing down at bed. No time for any of the things I’ve mentioned above.

And the weekends I travel somewhere around kochi or I simply have seggs, my only way of coping is the love and attention I get from my love. Rest of the world and my choices have been cruel to me.

I want my life to be worthy of a mighty story. Not tied to some 12 hr+ job, where they over work the heeeck out of me. I don’t have any liabilities atm, I could stay home until I figure it out. But I am not leaving this job for god knows whatever reason.

I want to get out of this loop. My anxiety, lack of discipline and procrastination is ruining my life.