u/throwawayy_21_

My ex dumped me in January and found a new boyfriend right after a breakup. 4 months later, she texted me first and she told me she has moved to my city because she has a job here. Thought she broke up with her new boyfriend. But I found out she still with him. She even asked me to hang out. I decided to tell it to her new bf. Now I feel really bad inside. All these months after our breakup, I have been really depressed and suicidal because I loved her so much and I still do even after everything she has done. I tried to heal myself by focusing on myself but it did not work. Her breaking the no contact did more damage to my soul. It reopened the wound that I tried to heal. Do not know what to do. I am so depressed right now it is eating my soul. I told her bf about her writing me today. I thought I would feel better that I am doing the right thing but it got worse. Maybe deep down I wanted them to breakup but they are still together even after this. I know I am a piece of shit for wishing such thing. It just the feeling and my love for her, I want her to be with me but it is impossible. She will never love me like I love her. Wanted to express all these feelings to someone so I wrote this ;(

Am I the only one who gets emotional over this line?

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Hello, me and my ex broke up 4 months ago. She found a new boyfriend right after a breakup. Probably she met this guy during our relationship. Two weeks after the breakup, she broke no contact and apologised for dumping me and she sent couple another messages related to other topic. It felt like she expected an answer from me. One month later, I decided to break no contact too because I genuinely still love her deep with my heart but our phone call ended up really bad. Two months flew by since that phone call. I woke up from a nap few days ago, I saw her message in instagram direct. She wrote me "Hello, how are you? I've recently moved to your city". I was really happy that moment. Thought she wanted to return our relationship. However, when I tried to invite her to go meet each other, she dry texted me. I asked her why she wrote me. She answered "just wrote to you, nothing much". I thought she broke up with her boyfriend. Today I decided to ask her if she is still with him. She said yes. I asked her why would she write me then. She told me "you asked me to be friends after the breakup and that's why I wrote you". But listen, I suggested this idea a long time ago after a breakup. I do not know why she brings this up because we had some conversations after the breakup and I did not mention staying friends at all.
I am so heartbroken right now.

Hello, me and my ex broke up 4 months ago. She found a new boyfriend right after a breakup. Probably she met this guy during our relationship. Two weeks after the breakup, she broke no contact and apologised for dumping me and she sent couple another messages related to other topic. It felt like she expected an answer from me. One month later, I decided to break no contact too because I genuinely still love her deep with my heart but our phone call ended up really bad. Two months flew by since that phone call. I woke up from a nap few days ago, I saw her message in instagram direct. She wrote me "Hello, how are you? I've recently moved to your city". I was really happy that moment. Thought she wanted to return our relationship. However, when I tried to invite her to go meet each other, she dry texted me. I asked her why she wrote me. She answered "just wrote to you, nothing much". I thought she broke up with her boyfriend. Today I decided to ask her if she is still with him. She said yes. I asked her why would she write me then. She told me "you asked me to be friends after the breakup and that's why I wrote you". But listen, I suggested this idea a long time ago after a breakup. I do not why she brings this up because we had some conversations after the breakup and I did not mention staying friends at all.
I am so heartbroken right now.