u/tin-omen

Since I am unable to meet their work or volunteer requirements to remain on them, I have been taken off. I have had severe housebound agoraphobia for 13 years now and they WILL NOT approve me for disability for whatever reason. The volunteer work needed for me to remain on SNAP would apparently involve me leaving the house, which I cannot do because my agoraphobia is that severe that I can barely go outside at all.

Honestly, I’m very seriously considering ending it soon because there‘s no way out of this for me

Since I can't meet their work requirements and they refuse to approve me for disability, it is only downhill from here. This is just one of many indignities that has come with having this bullshit disorder and i'm genuinely so tired of getting up every day

There's a lot of dead accounts in my neighbours tab, so maybe i'll have better luck here. This is my account

This is probably a long shot but I found an injured racer in my yard that appears to have some kind of spinal injury as it can't move its body outside of the head area ):

Medication, exposure therapy, taking small steps out of the house never changes anything for me at all and I’ve lost everything as a result. 13 years and counting of my life that I’ll never get back. I have zero life experiences, zero fun/incredible memories to look back on, I missed out on young love at an age when things are naturally more carefree. I missed all the experiences one should have that really help you develop as a person, which makes me feel stunted compared to most people. I have no support system because I have no friends or family. I’ll never have a career that im passionate about like I’ve always dreamed of having, instead I’m going to inevitably end up homeless because I can’t make an income I’m general. I’ve never been able to work, and I had to drop out of school because of my then undiagnosed health problems that made it impossible to attend classes. On top of it all, I’m going to lose my teeth because I can’t leave the house OR afford to fix them even if I could. This is not even remotely where I pictured I would be in my 30s and I cannot believe that this is my reward for failing an attempt on my life before I developed this. This life feels like a fucking joke

To keep it short, i'm about to turn 33 and I have had severe agoraphobia for 13 years now and i've been housebound for the entirety of it. I got diagnosed with Chiari a few years back in the hospital while they were looking for something else, but it explains so many of the awful symptoms i've struggled with since my teen years.

HOWEVER, I have never felt my agoraphobia was just agoraphobia, and the Chiari diagnosis validates that feeling for me. I've had tachycardia for most of my life (long before I ever struggled with anxiety at all) and they just shrugged and said it was sinus tachycardia but couldn't find anything wrong with the heart itself. It has progressively gotten worse over the years and even the most minimal physical exertion makes my heart beat like I just ran around the yard, and the pulse on my neck feels like a sledgehammer just from stretching alone while still seated ????

The main symptom of my anxiety is tachycardia and it's so bad during an attack that it literally makes me black out because it's pushing 200bpm. It makes it impossible to recover from this and it's so frustrating, especially when it feels like there's something else going on that's exacerbating the anxiety itself ):