u/toastedjupiter

I met a girl through my gaming account and we grew really close. For 4 months we talked nonstop, sending memes, calling while gaming, long paragraphs and rants, talking till 2am a lot, I helped her set up emulators, we just played Alice madness returns together, she became a constant in my day. I felt like I finally found a best friend again.

Then a few days ago all her accounts were just gone, and nothing. Days and nothing. She’s just gone. Idk why, we never fought, our last messages were having fun, so idk what could have been going on for her to just disappear out of nowhere like that. But it’s left me quite empty the last few days. I keep picking up my phone out of habit to see that it’s empty. I am having trouble playing the games we were playing together.

I just feel a bit bummed and suddenly lonely. And I’d really like to just sink into a really comforting game. I love stardew but that’s what we recently started playing together and I don’t really wanna touch it right now. I have PC and a steam deck and like I mentioned some emulators for ps1 and ps2. I’m okay with older titles too. Just something with lots of heart and story and something to attach to. My days have just felt so long lately, I need something new.

If you read all this thank you, and thanks in advance for any recs, i really appreciate it <3

I am a very intense/passionate/giddy person when it comes to my interests. I collect games and retro systems and love emulating old horrors and fantasy games. Just a big gamer in general.

Someone mentioned a game series I really love and I got excited and we started talking about it. But she was definitely a casual fan who only played one remake of the series which is completely fine and all but I started talking about the whole series and each studio that worked on which games and which ones I have in my collection or whatever and she kinda just laughed and said oh you’re like serious about this and a few other people laughed too.

I instantly reined it in and didn’t talk about a single game for the rest of the night, and now I feel so vulnerable and deeply embarrassed for coming off so intense. Like I feel genuine shame and embarrassment to the point I won’t even look at my gaming shelf and I’m avoiding playing any games because I’m uncomfortable with it all. Idk why one small comment like that has shaken me so much but I despise it. I now feel the need to keep my passions to myself and always be casual and shorter with people until I know they care as much as me.

I’m just soooo embarrassed I want to sleep all day and ignore everything but that’s so dramatic. Idk, is this normal?