u/todanceornotodance

recently ive been having these weird premonitions of things happening before they happen. I have a pretty active imagination and thought maybe I was just thinking of possible scenarios, but recently they have all been coming true.

i lose stuff all the time, but recently when thinking about an item that I dont know the location of, a spot pops up in my head and IM RIGHT.

i dont really know how to describe it, but ill think of a certain scenario, like my friend forgetting to bring a hairbrush and then it happens.

i have had experiences in my dreams of seeing my grandma who has passed, and once she smiled at me then dissapeared then in another she talked to me. both times I was aware she was dead and was very confused as to how she was there.

does anyone know like what I should do with this? is there something to do to help me focus on what I want to predict? do you guys think this is just me overthinking it? im pretty unsure. advice appreciated!!

he is 20 years old. he cannot handle being told no, his bedroom is so disgusting it has attracted carpet beetles TWICE. he has rotting food and empty food containers all over his floor.

he ate my dinner and when I went into his room to tell him he owes me the money to go buy it from the shop again, he attacked me and shoved me. i dug my nails into his arm so I didnt fall and he balled his fist up to punch me. i shoved him away and walked off. i told my parents if he didnt leave, im not living here anymore. i am 17 so I have a bit more priority over him.

he has never bought me a card for my birthday. on every christmas and birthday he always asks if we can pretend he got some of the presents i bought for our parents, as he got them nothing, or just a card.

it was my mums borthday yesterday and he hadn't written the card, or even bought her a present. my dad bought her one on 'his behalf'. and he ruined the whole day by telling her the house is such a shithole he will never bring his girlfriend here because of how embarrassed he is.

EXCUSE ME? there is about 5 different species of mould growing in his bedroom that MY PARENTS have cleaned for his adult self FIVE times now.

TL;DR: my older brother is a slob and a manchild that refuses to do anything for himself, yet complains constantly. we got into an argument and he got physical and i gave my parents an ultimatum of who is living in the house.

i didn't stop putting conditioner on to my roots until about 13, when i learnt from a friend it wasn't what you're supposed to do. when i mentioned it to my parents they laughed and asked why i wouldnt think that way.

I didn't know how to tie my shoes until begging my parent to teach me who scolded me for not magically knowing how. to this day, i won't retie my shoes everytime i put them on, just leave them tied and wiggle them on.

I am terrible at styling my hair. I can go a ponytail and a very messy braid. I taught myself both by using youtube tutorials as nobody would teach me. My mother will always ask why my hair was so unkempt and messy.

Recently, i was at my grandmas and my aunt was round. she was talking about the things she did with her kids when they were younger, like taking them and their friends to the zoo, taking them to all sorts of interesting places. My grandma started talking about all the places she took my mum too. It made me realise that my parents never really did anything. my dad worked a lot and would sometimes be home on the weekends, sometimes not.

They weren't bad parents or anything, just not there. I would spend the majority of my time on my ipad when i wasn't at school (yes i was an ipad kid, they are older than you'd think now.) but i remember i wouldn't have lunch most days, as my mum would just sit infront of the tv watching. it was like she wasn't really there, she'd just sit. staring. We would rarely go out and when we did it would be to go and get something from a shop or to my grandmas for a couple hours then straight back home. I remember as a kid trying to convince my mum to do activities with me like baking and she would reject them all by saying something like we didn't have the ingredients (when we did) or that it was too fattening.

Every summer holiday she'd promise we would do something fun like go to a theme park and when the summer holidays came we would never go. she would always conjure up some kind of excuse as to why we couldnt go and at that time, money was not tight at all.

my friends would all spend time going places and doing actual activities with their parents and we just did... nothing.

I feel like now as an (almost) adult it feels normal to stay home all day and just sit on my phone or laptop in bed as that is what i've done most of my life. I have tried to be proactive and do things like start running but i'm just at a loss of what to do when my friends are too busy to go out. I know i act like a 'slob' sometimes but it honestly just feels so hopeless.