u/tojaskrem

I believe I have “seasonal” ED. Sometimes I have phases when I don’t struggle with food because I have other things in my life that make me busy and happy, but when something changes in my life that is out of my control, then my ED comes back. I know it’s getting bad when I start overthinking my food choices, I start overanlyzing food labels and I start making rules for myself when it comes to eating (for example: my lunch can only have 2 ingredients et,)

What are the signs for you?

I literally feel like my brain just stopped working, I also find it hard to concentrate on anything, I keep forgetting things and I’m just overall being extremly slow

I take extremely long preparing food and I also eat veryyyy slowly and always do other things while eating. I also pick on my food and “play” with it (for example if I eat fish, I like to pick on the fillet and eat with my hands). I have to reheat my plate like 3-4x because it gets cold that’s how slow I eat. But I also think the reason that I’m so slow and everything takes ages is because I always push out eating, I have my first meal at around 4-5pm and I also workout very intensively in the morning so my body really needs food by that point because it has no energy. But the other thing is that I also don’t feel hunger earlier in the day at all. I have orthorexia because I’m very obsessed with only eating clean and high protein whole foods and I must cook everything myself at home, which also makes everything harder since cooking and cleaning up is a long time. I also don’t allow myself to eat until everything is cleaned up and I washed allllll the dishes. (OCD?)

Anyone else relates to this??