Undesired effects psilocybin - where to go from here?
I used microdosing to successfully get off of three antidepressants over the course of about 6 months. But a few things happen that I'd like to get your thoughts on:
- I've become very irritable. I think it's because of the unmasking from the drugs and then the psilocybin bringing things to the surface/amplifying means there's stuff I need to deal with now. On top of that, I don't have the tools because of years of suppressing. I'm seeing a therapist and am optimistic about it but in the meantime, I act ugly. Bad for me and terrible for the family. Have you experienced this and what do you do about it?
- Since weaning, I've macro'd twice. It's given me good insights that I'm using to develop and grow. I'm good during and immediately after but after a week or two feel I need to microdose for the antidepressant effects. First of all, question 1 (irritability started prior to the first macro and is still present after the second). Second, I know I need integration but isn't macro supposed to help a little, even without integration, just chemically?
- People here talk about the psilocybin helping ADHD. I feel the opposite. Executive function is completely disregulated and I'm really struggling acting. Can anyone relate? What do you do?
Yay, I'm off antidepressants. And yay that that's allowed me to macro and get insights that I wouldn't have. But I'm really stuck in other ways now and still feeling mildly depressed. Also, and I don't want to derail my own post, but it's really difficult not being able to get advice about psychedelics and dosing from my therapist, psychiatrist, or PCP. Perhaps micro is not the right thing for me?
Any and all insight and advice is appreciated.