AITJ for not wanting to apologize to my girlfriend?
I'm 24, my girlfriend is 22, we've been together for 6 months, and we have different ways of being loved... For me, just being told I'm loved, a hug, that's enough. But, I feel like even though there's a 2-year age difference, the role social media plays in her life is much more noticeable compared to mine; for example, I'd never had a streak on TikTok, and the truth is I did let the streak die once, but damn, at work you're the last person on TikTok, and she'd get mad because I let the streak die. Another thing is that she gets jealous because I don't take as many pictures of her as she wants, and she gets jealous that I take pictures of MY SISTER, when I only take them to tease her because I take them from really bad angles, haha. She also complains that I don't record her; there's always something. But it's always about social media. I have to admit I've made mistakes as a boyfriend too. Once she invited me to a baseball game, and because I wanted to please a friend and make it to her birthday, I suggested we leave (I understand now how wrong I was, and I'll never be that accommodating again). I've never intentionally betrayed or hurt her, and the thought of betraying her has never even crossed my mind. I truly love her.
The point is, I've really made an effort. I've taken more pictures of her, recorded more videos of her—the streak has lasted 60 days now. I send her reels, lots of things I've never done for anyone else, and I also show her every day that I love her by telling her and showing her. Saturday was her graduation. I had a little mishap and arrived late (I hit her car with a motorcycle), but in the end, we had a wonderful evening. I was truly happy to be celebrating this university achievement with her and felt like nothing could go wrong. But then, my phone died, and so did hers (this is important).
On Sunday, we saw each other, lay down, watched JoJo's Bizarre Adventure (lol), and talked. We talked about how we want a life together, how we really want something long-term, and how we can plan for that in the medium term. I felt incredibly happy and secure.
Monday came, and she complained about why I didn't take pictures of her. She said she felt awful seeing how her other classmates' boyfriends were taking pictures and videos of them, and that on other occasions, I take pictures of everyone, when in reality it's just my sister. She also said that I take pictures of a friend. But it's been six months since I've seen that friend. I liked her at one point, that's why I distanced myself from her because I didn't want any more trouble. I just don't feel like doing those "basic" things, and she's fed up with having to fight over the same thing.
Whenever we have problems, I'm the one who goes to her house to apologize. I'm the one who ends up calling her so she'll listen. I beg her, I cry, I practically beg her to hear me. But this time, she blocked me yesterday, and honestly, I'm fed up. I don't want to go on like this. I haven't even shed a tear. I'm really hurt because I thought we were doing great on her graduation day. She was so happy, just like on Sunday when we were talking about future plans. And to know she kept all that to herself until Monday and then blocked me... I feel like she threw away everything that happened over the weekend.
So, I'm the jerk for not wanting to reach out to her and waiting for her to apologize or... Is it over?