u/urmanswaifu

little background this is cheddar and i brought him in as a stray in jan of 2024. he randomly showed up just super emaciated and sick. i spent a lot of time with him to get him back to health and he had several vet visits. he’s been strictly inside since i brought him in. apparently he was never tested for fiv or felv even though i’ve now learned he should have been. and i am extremely frustrated that he wasn’t, considering everything i’ve found out.

last week his appetite starting decreasing and i noticed on friday he was trying to go to the litter box more. he was able to pee so it wasn’t a urinary blockage but i still planned to take him to my vet on monday since they’re closed f-s. saturday he had what i think was a stroke. it was awful he collapsed, started drooling, crying, and shaking. it didn’t last more than a minute and he had trouble walking right after.

so i called the emergency vet and rushed him over. his bloodwork showed he is fiv and felv positive and extremely anemic. they offered a blood transfusion but told me it was no guarantee that he would feel better. i would have done it but i couldn’t afford it. so instead we did an iv and a couple of shots and they gave me lixatinic and mirtazapine to give him at home.

so he’s been back at home today three days and i feel like he is just getting worse. he’s not eating very much at all and i got him all different kinds of wet foods to try and he’s eaten a few bites of dry food and two packs of churu puree but that’s it. he’s still drinking a lot of water. he keeps going to the litter box and not going and pacing around. he keeps losing his balance and collapsing for a few seconds and then will get right back up. at nighttime he seems worse and he has more episodes of the collapsing than during the day. he keeps jumping up to his favorite sleeping spots but also has been on the floor with me a lot, i’ve been trying to get him to stay on the floor instead of jumping up there. he has been sleeping a lot. he hasn’t been as affectionate with me and i’ve spent every second by his side since we came home from the vet. he just doesn’t seem like himself.

i really want him to pull through i love him so much. i’ve never had to go through anything like this so it’s really hard and i don’t want to make the wrong decision. i don’t want him to suffer though. i guess i just don’t know how long i should wait before making a decision on humane euthanasia. that is something i never wanted to consider but again i can’t watch him suffer. if anyone else has experienced this i would love to hear any advice.
please be kind this is extremely difficult for me.

so i got this tattoo about a year ago and i immediately hated it. everyone told me it would grow on me but it has not i think i hate it even more now. i don’t love the placement i wish it was a little higher, my fault but it was hard to tell in the two tiny mirrors. the main thing though is it just doesn’t not give the vibe i wanted. i feel like it looks like a scared fat ass cat instead of a bad ass looking one. i included all the pictures i sent, and i found out he wound up just tracing the one. but the shape is all wrong, the eyes, the mouth, the ears. i hate the shading most of all though i think that’s definitely what ruined it for me. i don’t like heavy shading in general so is there a way to fix this or should i try and get it covered or something?