u/uselessavoidant

its been in the 90s here lately, up to 100 with the index. My ac went out a month ago and my car ac went out a few days ago.

I am sweating like a race horse at any given time. Im covered in heat rashes on my face. Decided to go outside to hang out with my boyfriend at work and woke up covered in acne the next day

I have to take breaks in the freezer at work and sometimes I cant even feel the cold 😭

I love lexapro but i desperately need it to be winter again

Im back on birth control and ssris recently and holy fuck I just cant stop eating. I try so hard but its like the lexapro stops me from worrying about my weight until after I already binged. pair that with my birth control making it so that I never feel full and Im in actual hell.

Im slowly gaining back up to my highest weight and I cant stop myself. All that keeps running through my head is what I looked like when I was underweight. that was the only time I genuinely liked myself. I feel so disgusting now.

I dont like my body and everything is 10x more uncomfortable than normal. not to mention the body pain from being decently heavier

my meds were supposed to help with my anxiety and they have but its really kicking me in the ass now. I know its shallow but I cant be happy with myself unless Im smaller.

I hate feeling all this weight being back on me. going to talk to my doc about adding a med to help stop the binge eating when I go back because I cant take this. Im so disgusted with myself and it feels like my life is flying by and I cant actually enjoy it because Im stuck in this stupid body

I just started on lexapro and propranolol. Ive taken lexapro before and it worked fine but this is my first time on the other med. they were working great for the first few days but all of the sudden yesterday i started getting really anxious and i havent been able to relax since.

Its like Ive been on the edge of a panic attack for nearly 24 hours now. Im going to work in a couple hours and i dont know how Im going to deal with it. I feel like I need to dry heave. I just checked my blood pressure and pulse and my heart rate is 101.

Ive already called out of work once this week due to medicine side effects, I really dont want to have to do it again.

Does anyone have advice please? Im desperate

I take 10mg twice a day once in the morning and once at night. I took my normal dose last night (about an hour earlier than usual) and Ive basically been on the verge of a panic attack ever since. I thought maybe if I could get to sleep it would get better but as soon as I woke up it started again.

Im feeling pretty defeated. Im also going to be in an anxiety inducing situation tonight and I just dont know what to do anymore. It felt like I was going to throw up from panic all night.

Im about to take my morning dose and if it doesnt help then I dont know what Im going to do. I cant function like this. This paired with lexapro was working so good for me the first couple of days. I dont know why I suddenly feel like this