u/vegatune

Hello everyone, I'm 17 turning 18 in January 2027 , so I will be an adult very soon . I started college about 3 weeks ago , honestly I hate it , I hate every moment there ,maybe bc it's new and I don't have friends, olso I find it hard to adapt with everything , and I was feeling super down during these 3 weeks I can't help it , I became less happy, more negative, stressful, even my family started to notice my struggles , I don't eat , I don't enjoy even watching youtube or movies like I used to . 4 days ago I came from my classes, and my dad saw how I am getting worse , so he took me with his motorcycle to buy something to eat , and on the way he asked me why am I doing this to myself and I respond that I'm scared that I will never adapt and I'm scared that I will not get great marks , bc my future depends on those marks, but he told me that I just have to do my best and trust God (I'm Muslim btw) , and that if God wanted me to get even the first place , I will and nothing will stop that , but if God had better plan for me and I didn't get the marks that I worked for , I just have to be patient and put all my trust on God and everything will be okey.

After that little talk with my dad I felt little bit relieved, but the overthinking, stress, anxiety didn't go away, so he pick me up the next day from my classes after I finished them and we went to the beach, he bought me snacks that I love , and we set there in silence, we listened to the waves, that was so peaceful , I actually became better than before , but I'm still struggling little bit

I wrote this bc I want to motivate myself for my the new week , I have lot of classes, studying, and planning , I need motivation bc I feel so behind in my studies

If there any college students who had the same experience please advise me

And please give me some tips, apps ,or websites that will help me to study and plan for my week

So 17 and I'm a first year college student , my family is very poor but my dream was always to study abroad, but right now I'm seeing that it is impossible, because I can't afford the money and the scholarships are really hard to get specially for my situation, and the people around me keep telling me that "it's impossible","you have to spend money ","you don't have money ", my family are supportive even though they are struggling financially but they always comfort me and try to make me happy even a little. But I'm really worried and scared because I don't see anything in my life except study abroad and I don't know how I can begin and what should i do ,pls if there is someone experienced with this kind of topic pls help me i need guidance