u/vergilkisser

I live in Uzbekistan. only grain mix is sold in stores. I tried to order harrison's birds food delivery from their official website, but they don't have delivery to my country. I've searched the entire Internet, but there's just nowhere to order. what should I do? I will soon move with the birds to another country, and I will be able to order food for them, but what will they eat until then? i give them fruits, vegetables and chop, but i don't think that will be enough.

My family have 4 pet parrots - we all take turns in taking care of them, when I'm doing most of the job. As far as i noticed, one of the parrots was limping and had a paralyzed leg (he couldn't move it at all). However we don't have avian vets in my area - so i urgently took him to the regular one. This horrible vet said he's just disabled, said he was born this way. This didn't stick right with me. Today the bird started making weird head movements, but only did it once. I did some research, and my worst fear is that he might experience the symptoms of stargazing. I can only pray it's not true.

Then i wanted to buy tickets to another city with avian vets available - however i needed to make a passport for my birds in order to take them on a plane. I called like 6 different vets, and they're all ignoring me. Eventually i spammed them all, and one of them answered that they only make passports for cats and dogs. Right now i'm considering just taking a 16hr car ride to another city solo, but the weather outside is 40 degrees celcius, and i fear it would be too much for my bird.

It's so hard for me. I am chronically depressed (diagnosed) and i have HORRIBLE executive disfunction. I barely want to live, and all this responsibility is crashing me to death. But I don't want to leave him alone, and the least thing I want is for him to die. Every person i know around me is irresponsible. I'm the only one who can (and wishes to) help him, but everything is unbearably hard for me. Despite specifically PROMISING to take good care of them my parents don't seem to love or care for them. They all treat those birds like decorations and not living beings. They barely spend time with them, I'm the only one who's cleaning after them, talking to them. Furthermore, whenever I try to correct my parent's wrong care for the birds, they seem to get angry. One time they even told me that my "nagging" slowly makes them grow to hate those birds. They've done multiple things that could literally KILL those birds (smoking around them, giving them food they can't stomach, not changing their water). They said they'll take care of me after i'll be away to study abroad. However, now i'm seriously considering taking those birds with me. As much as i love and respect my family, i don't trust them enough to take care of pets. I know i'm not competent enough of an owner to give them a perfect life, but I care enough to try my best.

I can't just give them to another person - I am 1000% sure they're gonna get treated much worse. In country where I live in, animal abuse is completely normalized and NO ONE seems to know how to care for a bird properly. Every bird owner I've seen keeps them in a small cage, gives them seed-only diet, never lets them out of the cage, gives them harmful toys like mirrors or plastic, and keeps them alone without a company 24/7, or even worse, gets rid of them after they start to get inconvenient. I've seen it too many times to trust my community, unfortunately. Hell, even my family tries to convince me these birds are perfectly healthy and fine just because they don't want to deal with their issues. It devastates me. All of my concerns are seen as me being "overprotective" or "nagging them too much" because "they're just birds!". I hate being financially dependant on my parents AND struggling with mental health too much to be able to fix everything. We have arguments with my family almost everyday because i refuse to let the situation go, and it's ruining my relationships with everyone around me. everytime i do the seemingly right thing i receive extreme backslash.

i know no one else can help those birds but me. they're my responsibility and if something bad happens to them it'll be my cross to bear.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I think about those babies and their wellbeing 24/7 and it's making me super anxious. i feel guilty for every single second i spend procrastinating. Right now i'm using every strength i have to find a way to get him to a vet. maybe 16hr solo trip to another city for a girl in a muslim country would be a bad idea. i don't know, what else is there for me to do? My parents only agreed to take a plane in 12 days. but i fear that something happens to my babies during this time. i'm closely monitoring their health right now - they're doing fine so far. but i'm still fearing the worst.