u/wartearsandhoney

I don't know what's more pathetic-

loving him the way I did

Or that

Id let him break me once more

Twin flames will still burn each other to the ground

and you seem intent on taking the house with me.

You leave unlit matches on the nightstand and by every door.

Crank up the heat

and give me gasoline like it's water 

Buy plants to breathe so much oxygen at me that i'll combust

but it won't just be the house and i that go

I'll hold your hand like before 

like always rub my thumb on the back of your hand for friction

and use the dead and dry flowers on the table as kindling

 if i go then we go 

and the house will go with us 

We'll go together like always

Will be visiting bangladesh soon and I need a new air fryer alongside a good durable blender and maybe other appliances like a washing machine but that's for later, main need kitchen appliances. Would appreciate it if anyone can suggest stores that have good quality appliances that come with a warranty. I live around housing estate so maybe stores around there. Or you can suggest areas that are well known for these stores, I can check them out too.

Also would you guys trust ordering online ? I personally am skeptical but would like to know the experience of ordering things online for those in sylhet. Is it a hit or miss ? Or do people prefer shopping in stores

Shiasm has peaked my interest for the past 4-5 years but I never really did structured research about it. My knowledge is scattered but enough to know that I'd like to convert when my conviction is firm. I know that a lot of bangladesh has become brainwashed and influenced by wahhabism and sectarianism. It's really harming our people.

Anyways I wanted to know if there's any other bangladeshis who are shia or exploring ? Im from NYC and know of a handful of bangladeshis that converted to shiasm . All of them are highly educated and the biggest humanitarians I know which are so admirable.

Also this post isn't for anyone who is filled with hatred caused by propaganda and sectarianism. There's no space for that here especially in my dms and comment section.

I'm just seeking like minded individuals who have an interest in shiasm or are shia themselves. If that's you, feel free to comment or message.

Also anyone know about or seen the Muhurram processions in puran dhaka ? I've only ever seen videos and pictures. How is that for y'all?

As a sylheti furi whose exploring shiasm with the intention of converting once I have firm conviction I got curious to know if there's anyone else out there that may be shia or considering to convert as well. Would love to chat to a sylheti shia or even if you're a Bengali shia that'd be amazing

I live in NYC and have been introduced to a few shias that are Bengali, they've all converted after much research. There's a huge community of shias in NYC. A lot of them have programs at Islamic center of NYU.

***Also for those who are infested with the disease of hating shias especially because of misconceptions, sectarianism, and propaganda this post is NOT for you* I Refuse to argue with anyone

kombokt khobis o lakhan matle report r block korya rakmu.

So a little background about who I am. I'm 24- I was born and raised in America to a sylheti mother and a khulnaiya father . My father was in and out of my life until I was 7 and that's when I didn't have contact with him until I was 19. So 12 years of absolutely no contact, only to be no contact once more for the last year. I know very little about his family ( don't know any names or exact location of my bari) other than the fact that his family is religious and upper middle class. And also the name of his area

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My mom raised me fully immersed in the sylheti culture and language. I speak as if I'm 100% sylheti and no one would ever think my dad's from khulna. Not like it matters. Thankfully The sylheti part of my family don't have a superiority complex like most of the sylhetis too.

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Until the age of 7 I spoke both sylheti and the khulna dialect but after my dad left I lost grasp of the language.

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I really wanna connect from some folks who can teach me more about the community, what life is like in khulna, how it differs from other places in bangladesh. Cultural norms and traditions of the people. And everything else that'd be beneficial, fun, or interesting to know

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I'm so well versed with the sylheti tradition and language i feel it's only fair that im just as good with khulna.

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If any of you do decide to reach out through dms just know that I do not appreciate questions about my father and our relationship. Im naturally an open person but I don't appreciate people who only wanna know things about a person's life for their entertainment. So please don't be a nosey typical bangladeshi aunty/uncle.

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I prefer conversing with English cause my shuddho is kichuri 🍲 and PLEASE keep the marriage proposals out of my dms

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Feel free to leave a comment about everything khulna is (or isn't)

Im turning 24 today. I feel so far behind in life. Barely able complete community college. Home issues have gotten worse. Couldnt hold my job down and finding employment is hard. I've been in remission since 2023 until I've had a manic episode which I wasnt hospitalized for in August which really threw me off and since then it's been depression and hypomania. I have an amazing mental health team of professionals that I am often in touch with but I can't tell them the extent of the abuse Ive been going through ( mentally/emotionally not physically ) the PTSD can be really bad tho since my childhood abuser lives with us.

I feel like my brain is fried up. I tried so hard fighting for myself, to be stable, to be happy, to be content, to be safe , to live independently. But I FAILED- my mother doesn't have to remind me how much of a disappointment I am because I already know and it's insufferable.

I can't stop thinking about how hated I must be By God if he isn't taking my soul and giving me peace because all this world has done is wound me and shred my heart to pieces

I just wish I wasn't crying at least on my birthday.

A little background info for context - I'm 23f been diagnosed with bipolar type 1 and Cptsd since 15. Been hospitalized 10 times but been in remission since the start of 2023. Practically raised my 13 year old niece since my half sister (who is also my abuser) was emotionally absent and neglectful towards her own daughter. I have always lived in a high stress super dysfunctional environment. I did everything in the last few years to better myself from going to therapy to getting the right combo of meds to getting closer to faith, to going back to school, trying to have a support circle with my friends, working on my insecurities and healing my inner child.I mean EVERYTHING but i couldn't change my home environment where I had to deal with my sister and her triggering me and me going through emotional spirals. Also realizing that I'm a parentified child.

I crave romance and a healthy passionate relationship with intimacy that isn't just sexual BUT I come from a culture ( I'm South Asian + Muslim) that puts pressure on women to get married as soon as they turn 18 and expect to have children and want them. I love children and have a warm motherly aura BUT I was forced to raise my niece and meet her emotional needs that were supposed to be met by her mother. I'm exhausted from taking care of her and always being expected to be available to her and cater to her needs, being looked down upon when I don't. My own boundaries and space often being violated

Also having bipolar and PTSD took a huge chunk of my life away and on a daily basis still does. I don't want children to add onto that. I'm just afraid that this is the burn out talking and when I'm much older and the time has passed to have children I'll regret not having them. Also to find a man that's okay with being childfree is hard because the men Ive come across either want children or they absolutely do not. I fall in the middle where I may or may not want children

I wanted to hear from you guys how having children has affected your bipolar and overall life and also for those that decided to not have kids, how's that like ?

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Well it's been a while since I spoke to anyone on reddit so I thought why not make a post and see who's out there. Just looking for fellow yappers who can make each other laugh til our stomachs cramp. Im South Asian ( sylheti Bengali 🇧🇩🐅🪷) Im also in EST . I work in mental health and will be going back to school next semester. If you give a lurk on my profile you can see that I'm into poetry. But I'm also into spirituality, nutritional health and wellness , I know a thing or two about history. I like that my brain can absorb information like a sponge but that also means I've got a lot of scattered knowledge stored up there 🧠

I'm also Muslim if that matters. Although I adhere to quite modest- Orthodox attire ( I wear the niqab most of the time which is the face veil only revealing my eyes) my creed is more spiritual and eccentric. I don't debate on religious or spiritual views but I don't mind sharing beliefs and practices with like minded individuals .

Anyways if you like what you've read shoot me a dm introducing yourself. Don't be boring tho! Be as deep, open, honest, and weird as you'd like to be.