u/weab20

I’m in my early 20s working, living at home. Not too sure what I want to do with my life. I have a passion for music and play electric bass and just started the upright. But am not certain I have the dedication to practicing to make a career out of it. Anyway, rn I’m working at let’s just say a popular warehouse doing forklift. If you sleuth my profile you can find more details and probably geolocate me, anyway. I’m grateful to have a stable living situation. But I also feel stuck in the same small town I grew up, that all my peers moved out of. I made a similar post to another sub and some people were saying I give a woe is me vibe that I live in an upper middle class neighborhood for $400/month. So I am saving money and trying to build something. But everything feels so stagnant, even when I’m doing the things I should be doing to grow. Punching in. Lifting weights. Practicing bass. I have the free will and a car to go anywhere, but I’m sitting in my car on a Saturday night with no plans. The two biggest things are feeling lost as to what I pursue and sick of the same town I grew up in. Because I’m sick of this damn forklift lol. It’s almost like the stability and comfortableness of my life is killing my momentum. 🤷‍♂️

I live with my parents in a very nice suburban town. Picket white fences, houses cost $800k minimum kind of town. Very quiet, very boring. Commuter bedroom town that people come to raise their kids in or retire in. The few people I do see outside are either families or people walking to the train station. Car dependent and isolating lack of a “third place” to meet people like every suburb. I’ve been feeling this Groundhog Day thing where I go to work and come home everyday and don’t have meaningful interactions with people day to day. I live with my parents for stability and bc it’s cheap, but it’s slowly costing me my will and sanity. I live in such a bubble I’m sick of it. I feel like I want a radical change and there’s this frustration bubbling inside of me as the days chip away at me. Not trying to sound dramatic since I have it pretty good, but the monotony is soul crushing. No girls to try and talk to. No one my age to chill with. I want to travel but money isn’t free of course. And I feel like I’d still feel stuck just in a different place. But this environment is really not helping.

I’ve been on the lift a year. Mainly using it for dropping pallets to stock, unloading dry depots, some experience with EPJ. I think I’ve gotten pretty efficient. Right now I’m at $23/hr with a $1/hr differential for every hr I’m on the lift. And $36/hr Sundays. I like the environment/coworkers, some managers are pieces of work but I suppose it’s like any job. Commute is very short. I imagine I’d be hard pressed to find a similar gig. But am at the same time curious what my experience could get me elsewhere. I want to pursue a degree, but in the short term obv always wanting to make more money.

Versus glasses. Definitely big part psychological, but I didn’t get glasses till 18. I’ve been wearing them on and off for 5 yrs but don’t like how they put a barrier between my eyes and shape my nose, eyes being my best feature. So yea it’s a little vain, but wearing contacts makes me feel better abt my appearance.

Question tho: why is my right eye vision a little worse than my left eye when they’re in?

Had my contacts appointment at the optometrist the other day. I struggled taking them in and out the first few nights, and I think might’ve scratched or irritated my right eye doing so. The eye has been itchy/bit irritated and sometimes hazy (haloing) esp after taking out the lens. Is it a possibility there’s a contact stuck in my eye? Swear I got it out and I’ve put contacts in that eye since but sometimes it feels like I’m blinking into something.

Also, my prescription is -0.75 and the eye doctor gave me some to take home, but I don’t see as well in them as glasses especially reading text on paper or signs while driving. It’s also important bc I operate a forklift in a warehouse grabbing pallets 100 ft in the air. I’ve a follow up next week but was anxious in the meantime abt these things.