u/wigglyboiii

Title is a bit click baity, I know it obviously doesn't cure Aspergers.

I did some ecstasy on the weekend, and it was the craziest experience I've ever had. When I took it, it felt as if my mind suddenly fixed itself, and that my autism disappeared. Almost like it flushed it away, and I was just... Normal... I wasn't like my friends who took it. They all got super wasted from it and we're like they were shocked by lightning. But there i was just feeling normal for the first time ever.

Obviously I'm not going to make a habit of doing it, but has anyone else felt like this?

I'm just about at my wit's end with my partner. The mania is just getting worse and worse. She's villanizing me to the point where I feel like an absolute monster, where all I do is go to work to make money for us come home exhausted just to get beaten up mentally from the minute I get home to the minute I go to sleep (and that's if I'm lucky enough for her to let me sleep and not throw a tantrum threatening to destroy all my belongings).

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She says I'm not being productive in life when I work 6 days a week, and have suffered severe mental burnout from a previous job that almost destroyed me.

It was a similar situation where I was working 120% at work that I was in the deep end trying to take on a roll that was a higher level than what I was at the time. She then decided we needed more money and that I had to start a business alongside this causing me to burn out and almost break .

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She sits at home all day watching TV, doesn't do any of the housework, and makes the place a pigsty. When I get home, she blasts me about how messy the house is and how I haven't been keeping it clean or doing the dishes, which I might have put on to wash in the morning before I go to work.

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Granted, she has recently gotten a part-time job and works a couple days a week for a few hours each day. This however, she has instantly used it as an excuse to be lazy again and that she can't do anything because she's tired from work. On top of this she's always complaining about how she's in pain and always needs a foot rub or a back rub to help with the pain caused by the day of working or something stupid.

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It's getting to the point now she's threatening with divorce, and that I'm the most ugliest person inside she's ever met, and apart from trying to sell my stuff will break all my stuff she keeps threatening me to have to sleep in the car.

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I'm really not sure what to do right now, as I love her infinitely and cannot imagine a life without her .

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Hopefully someone can help me consider what the right step first would be to take, as I would appreciate any sort of advice.