u/willowdaze

Watched some movies next week and just curious as I don’t want to spend so much money of concession food.

I remember a while back they did for the media program and they put it in the pamphlet as well for Humber Guelph.

At north campus-

But for health related programs do they still do the same thing?

Do people get special ropes to wear if they have honours?

I have a twin and we are quite different from one another.

Long story short- they have always been smarter than me in many ways and socially better. I would not say I’m antisocial but I’m also not the type to let people into my life immediately. It takes a lot for me to really like someone.

I’ve always felt dumb when topics of politics, health, social issues comes up and I’m clueless. It doesn’t interest me in any way and as a result I just sorta feel inferior.

They have made a bunch of close friendships with various people through post high school/post graduate studies mainly.

I recently just graduated from a five year degree where I did not make any group of friends... I always ask myself why… someone told me I’m intimidating and have a RBF a while ago and I can’t stop thinking of it’s true or not.

I can’t tolerate petty surface level talk and people who are just immature. I’m serious because I don’t want to be played around with.

Now it’s summer and I’ll be alone most of the time busy prepping for a large exam to then start working.

I booked a bunch of activities and offered to my twin if they wanted to join. They do and it’s fine but upon reflection I feel like maybe they have pity for me and that I’m just this loner and I regret asking them to join me now.

They have introduced me to some of there friends and it’s fine- after a handful of meetups I still feel like they don’t like me/ won’t meet up with me personally ever- even though it felt like we were all close and having a decent time.

People in our past (elementary/high school) that we both knew quite well will only ever want to reach out to my twin and not me.

And when plans are made I used to go to them encase I thought it would be nice to reconnect but in hindsight I felt left out and that it was quite one sided. As a result I refuse to go to any of these old meetups.

Back then when I had a small group I’d be the main person to make plans and it became so tiring that I just started to step back and and see if anyone would take the initiate and 9 times out of 10 they would not.

I’ve was left out quite a bit as well when they would make plans without me and so I sorta have a trauma with making friends because I feel
Like none of it is genuine.

Not sure how to grow and get out of this funk. I just was 2-3 close friends I can call whenever and meet with and not feel like there is some sort of competition.