u/window_seat7279

I loved you, I wanted you. I would have gone to war for you, but instead you chose everyone else and left me behind.

I think that I will just step back and see who gravitates towards me. God knows I have tried so hard to hold on to people and things. This hasn’t always had the best outcome. Being a good person and having somebody’s best interest in mind hasn’t really worked out so much for me. So with that said, if you want somebody else - go. If you feel uncomfortable - go. If you don’t trust me - go. If you don’t like me - go. The door is wide open.

We try to prove ourselves to somebody who just doesn’t care. Why do we put ourselves through this pain? We torture ourselves trying to jump through so many hoops for the person who supposedly chose us. The bar moves all the time and we stupidly try to achieve that goal that’s always moving and we know it’s moving. It’s rude and very disrespectful and we put ourselves last anyway.

This isn’t love from the other side and we know it. Yet we do it anyway.
until we are so exhausted and hurt that we finally give it that one last shot before giving up entirely. It’s a sick game that people play with us. The good ones of the world are here. We don’t deserve this misery. We deserve a loving relationship with people who also deserve a loving relationship. I wish for everyone going through this abuse gets better and is able to move on with their lives.