u/z0mbiegore

So for about a week now I have been super constipated, every time I’ve tried to use the restroom it’s only ever been very small amounts, even though it feels like bigger. Today I haven’t had a bowel movement at all, the only thing that comes out is bloody mucus and sometime clear/white mucus.

I am super severely bloated, I only looked at my stomach today but I almost look pregnant? Its a bit pointed rather than rounded and the bloating is underneath my belly button. I also feel constantly full to the point where I don’t eat as much. I haven’t really been able to pass gas either. When I eat regular portions, I get super nauseous.

I don’t have any pain or anything like that though. The blood is really scary for me, it’s the only thing I really pass. Sometimes I feel this huge urge to poop (like rushing to the bathroom huge) but like I said the only thing that comes out is bloody mucus. But I really am in no pain at all so I’m not sure what to do?? I was planning to go to urgent care tomorrow or saturday but I’m just super anxious about this

I’ve only worked here for about a year. My last house was more independent and focused more on emotional regulation. I’ve gotten hurt at that house before (pushed down stairs) but at the time it was worth it to me. I got moved to a different house after pressing charges against the client who pushed me because she has a history of violent behavior. After this I think she ended up getting charged with a misdemeanor. After the incident her file was updated and she ended up having a much more criminally violent past that I was not aware of. Which made me quite upset.

I was then moved to a different house after all the legal stuff happened. (I was not involved in the legal side, the state was who officially charged her idk about these things). I’m pretty sure that’s why I was moved. When I got switched my hours were cut in half which I didn’t mind because by that point I was exhausted and had no interest in picking up shifts or working any more than I had to. This new house is much different from my old house. I’ve had many issues with wheelchair transfers specifically. The client I have to transfer is about the same weight as I am (120-130lbs) and there are no assisting tools for transfers.

Today it was just me and her. I tried to move her but I couldnt reach the wheelchair in time, and she was sitting on the floor. I physically couldn’t lift her back up. I tried for maybe 30-45 minutes trying and threw out my back hard. i was crying and struggling the whole thing until a coworker could help me. The client was laughing along the whole time but I was so stressed.

I just can’t do this anymore. I can’t do it. I am so unbelievably burnt out I cannot physically or mentally do my job. I would rather work in any other field and caretaking. I just can’t do this. I don’t care what bridges I burn. I am quitting effective immediately. I just can’t do it. I can’t. I had to step out and take 15 minutes to cry and calm down and I simply can’t do this anymore. I cannot.