u/zerowintergreen

So, for context, I am doing an online gym class so I don't have to embarass myself at school trying to do gym. For whatever reason, my school counselor who helped me sign up never mentioned that the school is doing something they havent done before and lock us out of our computers until school is back. Therefore, I cannot get onto everything. Only email through my phone. Can't get onto the application needed (my school stops phones from logging onto almost everything with a school account), or zoom, or anything. This is a SUMMER CLASS! It's supposed to be from summer to mid fall. But I can't get on!!! The teacher is probably wondering why I've not submitted my weekly check in, or my quizzes, or any of that. I can't get onto that stuff.

My entire family is christian and practically begging me to return to christianity. My father doesn't even know I no longer believe as he has intense anger issues and I am not here for that, but my mother knows and so do my father's parents. A few years back I had a few friends who weren't christian. I was comfortable confiding in them and they were supportive of me leaving the religion. But they stopped being friends with me over something stupid, and the two friends I have now are both christian. It makes me uncomfortable because they always say "you can tell me anything" but that changes when it comes to me not being christian. I don't have anybody left to talk to about this. I'm not even comfortable telling my therapist about this because she is also a christian (she doesn't try to convert me back or anything, but I get anxious she insults me in her head).

I've had this account for two years. My first account had 100 followers and I stopped using it when my views dropped from 500+ to 50 views (I make tiktok edits so it takes time). This account has gotten to 3,649 followers, and looking through the followers, most are real people, not bots. I make the same content, only i got a scenepack, so now it is higher quality. For like a year I have been getting 500-1,000 views per a video, then it slowly dropped to 100, and for over a month now I have been unable to hit more than 60 views. I love the content I make, its what I am good at. I've tried other accounts and they just don't go well. What should I do?

Edit: somehow, i forgot to mention the actual platform I use. It's TikTok!

So, for context, I am a 16FTM high school student. My only friends are two siblings, 21F and 17F, both are mentally disabled and are mentally younger than me (this is not an insult, I am speaking a very clear fact that matters to the post). My 21 year old friend (we met in school, she had to redo years, I wouldn't call that strange) has a very strange dating life. Her last girlfriend she dated for half a year before discovering her girlfriend cheated on her and dumped her the day of a concert she was performing in.

Anyway, my 21F friend (lets call her K) started dating a dude two months ago whom she met at a summer camp she works at in the summer as a helper. They had known each other a few years outside their relationship but only talked during work and didnt contact outside of work. He had just came up to her, started flirting, and they became a thing. K was very happy to be getting over her ex, and basically entered the same thing she entered with her ex where her new lover can do no wrong and could never hurt her.

Today the two of us hung out, and I jokingly mentioned marriage. She then casually said, "oh yeah, guess what... he put a ring on it! I'm engaged!" HUH??? I thought she was joking. Two months they had been in a romance. TWO! She was not. I'm just so worried about her. She still has those rose colored glasses on. K takes things way too quickly, like she's already talking about marrying him, she's engaged, I wouldnt even know if i didnt bring up marriage.

But whenever I bring up worries like this she reminds me that I'm just a teenager and "when I'm her age I'll understand". I dated a girl for 4 months and knew the girl for 2 years first. I think I understand. I wanted to marry her too, but did I go ahead and try to marry her? No! Because I knew it was too soon (remove the whole i was 14 at the time part of course)... I just feel so useless because its not my problem but she's my friend and if i don't give my honest to god opinions than I'm a bad friend.

I hate this age gap, I hate watching as my best friend falls in love and getting her heart broken, and this time its gone too far. They just started dating and now they're engaged? Wow. I'm also worried due to, like I said before, her mental disability. She treats everything the way a child being forced into adult situations do. It scares me. I worry for her and I can't do anything about it.

Hi! I hope this is the right sub as I did not know which sub to post this in. So, basically, I stim. Usually I just tap my feet and hands and stuff like that. But when I'm REALLY excited (by like listening to music I like), I rock back and forth like crazy. It caused a hole in my wall and my bed frame is falling apart because of it. My dad keeps telling me to control it but I can't stop myself. I don't know what to do about this because I don't realize when I'm doing it.