Left is fresh except for the snake was about 1 week healed . Right is now :) the upper arm piece, snake and hand piece are all handpoked and rest are done with machine. I take meticulous care of them!
I got these huge patches of itchy hives over several areas of my body yesterday suddenly. No new food or anything else . Took a Zyrtec and it started going down and seemed fine. Then this afternoon it reappeared randomly again, mostly the same places. No other symptoms besides itchiness, and not all the hives are itchy just some spots like my neck right now .
Has anyone else experienced this before? What should I do?
I’ve been doing some deep work recently and got in touch with this existential feeling of unsafety.
It’s like a fear/anxiety that lives in my chest and throat. Even though nothing is happening on the outside and logically I know I am perfectly safe and nothing is going on, there’s this immense fear that I’m not safe. That something bad is about to happen. I’m about to be exposed. I think this feeling ties in with shame too. The shame says it’s not safe to exist and not safe to be seen. It makes me want to hide somewhere and never come out.
I think all this stems from never having a stable home or emotionally available/ non abusive parents. My nervous system never got that imprint of “safety”, but rather always in fight or flight.
The only thing that’s been helping me through this is trying to connect with something greater than myself and imagining being held in that .
Does anybody relate to these feelings?