Looking for Dutchies 🇳🇱
Any other Dutch people on here? I would love to find a friend who is also trying to navigate in this crazy life/world.
28 year old female, diagnosed with depression, ADHD en Bordeline.
Hello you lovely people!
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I was told I have BPD by a psychologist but am awaiting a proper diagnosis.
I would love to chat with anyone here because you all seem so sweet.
I am 26F and am struggling so much esp to get over my exes. I just would really appreciate a comforting ear.
I have cptsd. And I thought I have adhd as well, but now my resident psychiatrist friend who only met me once, and our relationship is so shallow- mostly reel relationship 😂 he mentioned that I have borderline disorder instead of ADHD. I am like wtf how!
What I know is I have fearful avoidant attachment (push pull dynamic), which is highly linked to BPD. I also have absolutely no deep friendships or relationships my whole life (i am 30) despite there is a lot of men interested.
In relationships, I tend to love hate the person. Oh I started to feel intimate or attached? Let’s run away, or I start crying when I feel intimate or when I hug someone! I start crying especially when I am drunk. This puzzled me but I thought it was my avoidant attachment style, didn’t think it might be BPD
I also have hard time sticking with anything. I would pick something start it, and drop. This include starting businesses, jobs ect.
Also i have emotional dysregulation (also symptom of complex trauma) so Idk really.
I am also manipulative, I developed this later in life when I saw how fucked up ppl are, and how manipulation is the only way to adapt and get away with dysfunctional environment.
The last trauma really fucked me up, and left me numb depressed anxious for 5-6 years. And I really find it very hard to put my life together. I felt very numb and empty and anhedonic and extremely dysregulation and very disconnected from ppl and from life.
I have very low consciousness personality trait, which is tied to BPD.
I have pessimistic view in life, which to me is very really and shouldn’t be apathologized, because the world is fucked up, we end up ageing, diseases and suffering and die 💀 so it is very pointless and meaningless to me- but this is just my philosophy in life.
Actually I am the most tolerable person you could meet. I don’t see ppl as merely good or merely bad, but a mix of both.