r/Fostercare

Hi! Currently in foster care right now... I've been sent to respite once for a night already and it was horrible and I had the option of a fictive kinship home that they actually deemed safe and said i could go to for that night but never went through with it. So now my foster parents are going on vacation for 2 weeks and I dont think DHHS will consider my concerns again.. what will happen if I refuse to leave the house? They want to send me back to that shitty respite and I'm not doing that nor to another random house.. It was so gross. But is there any consequences for me or can they force me?