r/Spiritfarer

I was able to catch three Octopus at coordinates 108, -93. To finish one of Elena’s errands. I also caught a lot of Mahi-Mahi…I hope this helps you!😃

I got so attached to everyone and it hurt so badly when I let the spirits go. I didn't wanna say goodbye. I wasn't ready to say goodbye to anyone. I never was going to be ready. I feel horrible for leaving Buck all alone on the ship. I regret not giving him a pizza before I left. I'm horrible with goodbyes. This game is so fun, but so sad. It kind of hurts knowing that I won't be able to experience it this way again, no matter how many more times I play it.

(It starts getting personal here)

This game helped me learn how to say goodbye to a close friend of mine. It still hurts so badly, though. I have only one big regret: Pushing his boundaries. I pushed his boundaries too far. I thought I was just joking around and being curious without thinking. I didn't know it would make him leave without warning. I didn't know it would cause him to stop talking to me without a goodbye. I didn't think that I would stop existing to him because of it. No explanation, no warning, no goodbye. Just silence. I tried apologizing. I tried making it up to him in whatever way I could. I tried communicating. I tried desperately, yet it was like I wasn't even there. Not even a stranger. Just... gone. Like I never existed.

I miss him. I miss everyone I lost. I miss everyone who promised to never leave. I made so many memories with people, and I spent so much time laughing and having fun with them without knowing it would be the last.

I know this is probably not what the sub is about nor do I expect people to even read this, I’m honestly making this half to come to terms with it and half to just say what this game means to me.

I’ve never been the person to believe that video games have an impact on a person’s real life more than entertainment but playing this game changed that.

My grandmother was my best friend. She was a person who traveled until her body couldn’t and when it did, I traveled for her, she liked to watch Ski jumping, play solitaire and complain about her neighbor that walked around the apartments 6 times at 5pm every day for 30 years.

She passed shortly before I started playing this game and if I believed in a god, getting this game recommended to me would’ve been a sign that it was ok for me to let go.

Playing as Stella, learning the characters stories, how they all had issues and regrets that in the end, they made peace with and passed through the Everdoor really helped me metaphorically help my grandmother though the gate.

I’m still grieving tremendously that I’ll won’t be able to eat her cooking or play card games with her again until I myself pass through the gate, but I think playing this game has put into perspective that grief and sorrow.

I doubt the devs will ever read this, but if you do, truly, thank you for making this game. I think I’m okay with the fact that she, like the characters in the game, realised that no matter what, she had a good life and was okay with leaving.

Edit: Thank you for all your nice comments, since some of you said to think of my good memories with her, I thought I’d share my favorite. Maj was my paternal grandmother and unlike my younger sister who was a daddy’s girl, I was very close to my grandparents, my grandmother especially.

One year when I was about 10 we were going to the annual town fair, it had candy- and toy stalls and different rides, honestly a mini amusement park. Me and my sister were walking with my father, holding his hand so we didn’t get lost in the crowd.

From across the park I saw my grandmother; I without hesitation yanked my hand from my father’s grip, yelled “FARMOR!!!!” (Grandma) so loudly I’m sure the king heard me and booked it towards her.

She would always bring this memory up when talking about children, which was fairly often honestly. Especially in recent years when her memory began to fail her. She forgot a lot of things, but her little girl running across the fair into her arms was never one of them.

Since her name was Maj, the Swedish word for the month of May, she would always say “My name is Maj but I’m born in June” like it was some cosmic joke on her behalf. So I find it humorous that she passed on May 31st (last day of May), she may have been Maj born in June, but the gods above as her witness, she sure as hell was going to die in May.