This anger won't go away!!
I'm a 33 yr old single mom, and alhamdulilah I'm proud of who I am today. I'm able to support myself and my kids, travel and enjoy my hobbies. But the shit I've endured as a wife and a sister has made me really dislike men. Now don't get me wrong, I believe there are good men in this world; but I really and truly believe that most Yemeni men are terrible. But I don't blame *them* per se: I blame their parents and how they were raised.
The fact that I can't even see myself remarrying should speak volumes. I subconsciously would see a Yemeni man walk by and automatically assume he's either a pervert with a holier-than-thou attitude or a cheater that believes women should never be seen or heard unless he allows her to speak. It's to the point where I dont trust any man and when my parents mention marriage, I automatically feel dread...like someone's talking about an impending doom.
I'm so content with my life today, but when I see the compassion and love between my parents, I also worry I will regret that I never gave the suitors a chance. But what kind of chance do I give desperate suitors who either was a u.s. visa, want me as a 2nd wife, or I simply don't care to know about?