r/narcissistic

hi, i made alot of posts on this subreddit before.

https://www.reddit.com/r/narcissisticparents/comments/1ufr5x4/comment/ouemqzi/?context=3

And another post to further explain why i am here:

https://www.reddit.com/r/AmItheAsshole/comments/1ujpczs/aita_for_speaking_my_mind_or_should_i_stay_quiet/

So, i was right, we are (maybe) getting evicted soon, today, my Nar. mother gotten angry at me and my older sis for having "attitudes" and a "stick up ours asses". So lately i'll say around the past three to four months, she does nothing but complains about bills. Everyone in the house literally throw ourselves at her, telling her we want to help. But every time, she blow it down and blame us for the money she spends. (IF YOU NEED AN DEEPER UNDERSTANDING< PLEASE READ MY LINKS, THANK YOU)

Today, she blew up on me and my sis, saying that she should be the one with the attitude, not us. That she should be be the one with the anger, that she should be the one frowning. I cant say all the things she said because ill probably get banned, lol. But I lowkey feel like her manipulation tactic worked on me. I was planning on leaving the day we get evicted, so she wont stop me but now thinking on it...i know i'll feel bad for doing that. i know she'll disown me and make it seem as if i left because i cant "do whatever i want" and that everything is expensive and that i was being hot in the ass. Like no matter if i go or not, things will be expensive regardless.

I just feel like, i may end up staying...but i want to leave. Im not mentally ready to be on my own, all my life she made it evolve around her. Now im scared shitless. I need help.

I do have an plan after i leave:

Apartment plan: https://www.reddit.com/r/budget/comments/1uft95b/thinking_about_living_alone_and_getting_my_first/

https://www.reddit.com/r/Apartmentliving/comments/1ue0op8/with_or_without_utilities_which_is_better_and_why/

Job(s) plan: https://www.reddit.com/r/askanything/comments/1ulre9r/should_i_do_youtube_or_get_an_real_job/

And i know someone wouldn't agree with me atp, and i dont feel like overly explaining myself, so if you dont mind, please visit this link:

https://www.reddit.com/r/offmychest/comments/1unaeow/i_dont_hate_reddit_itself_but_i_hate_most_of_its/

(IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT I POST, DONT AGREE OR APROVE, YOU DONT HAVE TO READ OR REPLY.)

Thank you for reading my post.

ATTN Diagnosed or self diagnosed Narcissists

What are genuine moves that your primary attachment can do that would absolutely drive you insane?

How could a normal person do something that would make you spiral?

I have studied different types of narcissist and I have experienced a Grandiose Narcissist and a Vulnerable Narcissist < That one was trickier.

I have found that moving on and blocking access seems to be the biggest bullet. But what else is there? What makes you tick?