u/Pleasant-Struggle727

hi, i made alot of posts on this subreddit before.

https://www.reddit.com/r/narcissisticparents/comments/1ufr5x4/comment/ouemqzi/?context=3

And another post to further explain why i am here:

https://www.reddit.com/r/AmItheAsshole/comments/1ujpczs/aita_for_speaking_my_mind_or_should_i_stay_quiet/

So, i was right, we are (maybe) getting evicted soon, today, my Nar. mother gotten angry at me and my older sis for having "attitudes" and a "stick up ours asses". So lately i'll say around the past three to four months, she does nothing but complains about bills. Everyone in the house literally throw ourselves at her, telling her we want to help. But every time, she blow it down and blame us for the money she spends. She keeps saying we can talk to her, but i know we cant. She'll just go off and try to tell you why you shouldn't be that way, trying to be a fake ass prophet with her lying ass, or straight up just tell everyone else. I haven't had an emotional conversation with her since i was 12 to 13. (IF YOU NEED AN DEEPER UNDERSTANDING< PLEASE READ MY LINKS, THANK YOU)

Today, she blew up on me and my sis, saying that she should be the one with the attitude, not us. That she should be be the one with the anger, that she should be the one frowning. I cant say all the things she said because ill probably get banned, lol. But I lowkey feel like her manipulation tactic worked on me. I was planning on leaving the day we get evicted, so she wont stop me but now thinking on it...i know i'll feel bad for doing that. i know she'll disown me and make it seem as if i left because i cant "do whatever i want" and that everything is expensive and that i was being hot in the ass. Like no matter if i go or not, things will be expensive regardless.

I just feel like, i may end up staying...but i want to leave. Im not mentally ready to be on my own, all my life she made it evolve around her. Now im scared shitless. I need help. I am mentally drained and feel like if i dont go, i'll probably do something to myself.

I do have an plan after i leave:

Apartment plan: https://www.reddit.com/r/budget/comments/1uft95b/thinking_about_living_alone_and_getting_my_first/

https://www.reddit.com/r/Apartmentliving/comments/1ue0op8/with_or_without_utilities_which_is_better_and_why/

Job(s) plan: https://www.reddit.com/r/askanything/comments/1ulre9r/should_i_do_youtube_or_get_an_real_job/

And i know someone wouldn't agree with me atp, and i dont feel like overly explaining myself, so if you dont mind, please visit this link:

https://www.reddit.com/r/offmychest/comments/1unaeow/i_dont_hate_reddit_itself_but_i_hate_most_of_its/

(IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT I POST, DONT AGREE OR APROVE, YOU DONT HAVE TO READ OR REPLY.)

Thank you for reading my post.

hi, i made alot of posts on this subreddit before.

https://www.reddit.com/r/narcissisticparents/comments/1ufr5x4/comment/ouemqzi/?context=3

And another post to further explain why i am here:

https://www.reddit.com/r/AmItheAsshole/comments/1ujpczs/aita_for_speaking_my_mind_or_should_i_stay_quiet/

So, i was right, we are (maybe) getting evicted soon, today, my Nar. mother gotten angry at me and my older sis for having "attitudes" and a "stick up ours asses". So lately i'll say around the past three to four months, she does nothing but complains about bills. Everyone in the house literally throw ourselves at her, telling her we want to help. But every time, she blow it down and blame us for the money she spends. (IF YOU NEED AN DEEPER UNDERSTANDING< PLEASE READ MY LINKS, THANK YOU)

Today, she blew up on me and my sis, saying that she should be the one with the attitude, not us. That she should be be the one with the anger, that she should be the one frowning. I cant say all the things she said because ill probably get banned, lol. But I lowkey feel like her manipulation tactic worked on me. I was planning on leaving the day we get evicted, so she wont stop me but now thinking on it...i know i'll feel bad for doing that. i know she'll disown me and make it seem as if i left because i cant "do whatever i want" and that everything is expensive and that i was being hot in the ass. Like no matter if i go or not, things will be expensive regardless.

I just feel like, i may end up staying...but i want to leave. Im not mentally ready to be on my own, all my life she made it evolve around her. Now im scared shitless. I need help.

I do have an plan after i leave:

Apartment plan: https://www.reddit.com/r/budget/comments/1uft95b/thinking_about_living_alone_and_getting_my_first/

https://www.reddit.com/r/Apartmentliving/comments/1ue0op8/with_or_without_utilities_which_is_better_and_why/

Job(s) plan: https://www.reddit.com/r/askanything/comments/1ulre9r/should_i_do_youtube_or_get_an_real_job/

And i know someone wouldn't agree with me atp, and i dont feel like overly explaining myself, so if you dont mind, please visit this link:

https://www.reddit.com/r/offmychest/comments/1unaeow/i_dont_hate_reddit_itself_but_i_hate_most_of_its/

(IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT I POST, DONT AGREE OR APROVE, YOU DONT HAVE TO READ OR REPLY.)

Thank you for reading my post.

Hi, i am an big fan of horror movies, i am bored at the moment and is need for an good scare or an good scene to help me get out of writers block. So..if you have an good horror movie suggestions, please tell me about it 😭.

Im not picky on them either, it can Korean, American, filipins, Chinese or anything, i just an good scare or inspo to get through the day of trying to finish an writing project. it can be shows, short films, long 2 hour movies, an small script of filming, just anything will do. I dont mind the love+horror, thrillers, comedy horrors, true stories or anything.

Thank you for your time of reading my post.

(like literately, it can be ANYTHING horror related. Games, shows, books, magazines, movies, just anything horror.)

I’m thinking about starting a YouTube channel as a hobby. I don’t really care about views or money (if i even make any from it, lol) – I mainly want a digital scrapbook of my creative journey that I can look back on over time.

I love history and essay‑style writing, so one part of the channel will be narrative history videos: something people can watch or just have playing in the background. I’m especially into anything war related World War and cultural history.

But I don’t want the channel to be mostly history. I also want a wider mix of videos related to writing, ideas, and reactions content – things like personal essays, commentary on games or media, philosophy/psychology rambles, and reaction content where people can agree, disagree, and explain why. Not everything has to be about history; sometimes I just want to react to something and add my perspective so people can reflect on it or debate it.

Basically, I want the channel to feel like something you can watch or just have in the background.

I know not everyone is into history or essay videos, but I’d love for at least a few people to enjoy the channel – whether that’s for learning something new, relaxing with background videos, or just seeing someone experiment creatively over time.

For anyone more experienced:

– Does this kind of “creative scrapbook” channel (history + essays + reactions/commentary) sound like something that can slowly find its own little audience?

– Is it okay to mix different types of content as long as they all fit under storytelling / thinking / creative exploration, or should I keep it tighter at the start? Or start off onto something else entirely?

– Any tips for a new creator who wants to focus on improving their skills and having fun instead of chasing numbers?

I’m mostly doing this for fun and to document my progress, but I’d appreciate any feedback on the concept or suggestions for making the content more engaging.

(If you want to, can you name your channel or Videos i can look at for refences? You dont have to if you dont want.)

Thank you for reading my post!

I am using an site called 1show.org. It works just like Netflix, have upcoming movies on it, have an wide section of anything to watch and it even works with VPN's. You can switch in-between servers to get an better one if one stops working, and it saves your progress if you have an account made, leaving you off where you stopped at. you can even download the movie and watch it in your media folder.

I LOVE this site. So i want to share it with others to love as well.

(And also, if the movie just came out, its an high chance it may be a bootleg recording of that movie)

AITA or am i in the wrong?

The other night, my mom’s boyfriend sat down with me, my older sister, my mom, and his son. He told us he wants to see us succeed in life and wants to help us get a car so we can get to where we need to go. He explicitly said he doesn't care if my mom tries to get in the way like she always does, because she doesn't want to see her own children succeed. The entire time he was talking, my mom was making undermining comments, saying things like, "You aren't going to touch my car." Or hella bullshit answers for some reason.

After he finished speaking, I directly told him and his son not to involve me in those kinds of conversations anymore. i may have came off a bit aggressive due to constantly hearing plans like this. Every time we have these talks, my mom interferes and makes sure the plans never happen. Naturally, I already assume nothing will actually change, and I am tired of hearing big promises that never come to light.

This morning, the boyfriend’s son told my mom what I said. She immediately got in my face and started screaming at me. She called me a "bitch," a "dumb ass bitch," "low-down," and "selfish," and told me I was never going to make it in life acting this way being nonchalant and negative. Saying that i need to change my ways, I know i have to change my ways in some aspects but im not going to sit back and watch things happened and not have something to say about it. I did that all my life, im tired of it.

I told her exactly how I felt about the situation, but she just kept insulting me. She claimed I need to "find a place in my heart to care." But I do care. If I didn't care, I wouldn't have given her my own money just to watch her waste it. She also conveniently forgot that she never stopped her last boyfriend from talking down to her kids right in front of her face while she just smiled and grinned.

Now, she is demanding that i need to apologize to him, telling me I should have said those things to other people that needed to hear it—even though every time I do, she gets furious with me. She keeps making excuses, claiming nobody can get a job because people aren't hiring. I know the job market is tough, but the reality is that there are no jobs in our immediate area; we have to look further out.

She refuses to try to get anything for herself or for us. We are currently on the verge of getting evicted because she barely pays the rent—she only pay $60 a month for a company-owned house, they want more then that and she still isn't paying it. She knew she couldn't afford this place when she signed the lease, but she makes it seem like it's everyone else's fault but her own.

My mom is a narcissist. She always tries to make her kids feel like everything we do is wrong unless it's done her way. But when its other people and their children, we dont even exist to her unless she wants an slave to follow her around. I was already planning on apologizing just to keep the peace, even though I know I was in the wrong. i could've not said anything but my emotions got the best of me. I am just completely drained and can't do this anymore. Im going to stop putting all my energy and time into them all, im going to be dry as hell to everyone from now on, im cutting ties with her bf son, he broke my trust, once i leave this house, im cutting her off and the only person im going to deal with is the bf.

my sis that was there even called me an asshole, i can see why but they all are acting as if they weren't assholes to.

Am I the asshole, or should I just keep my mouth shut and keep everything to myself from now on?

The other night, my mom’s boyfriend sat down with me, my older sister, my mom, and his son. He told us he wants to see us succeed in life and wants to help us get a car so we can get to where we need to go. He explicitly said he doesn't care if my mom tries to get in the way like she always does, because she doesn't want to see her own children succeed. The entire time he was talking, my mom was making undermining comments, saying things like, "You aren't going to touch my car." Or hella bullshit answers for some reason.

After he finished speaking, I directly told him and his son not to involve me in those kinds of conversations anymore. i may have came off a bit aggressive due to constantly hearing plans like this. Every time we have these talks, my mom interferes and makes sure the plans never happen. Naturally, I already assume nothing will actually change, and I am tired of hearing big promises that never come to light.

This morning, the boyfriend’s son told my mom what I said. She immediately got in my face and started screaming at me. She called me a "bitch," a "dumb bitch," "low-down," and "selfish," and told me I was never going to make it in life acting this way being nonchalant and negative.

I told her exactly how I felt about the situation, but she just kept insulting me. She claimed I need to "find a place in my heart to care." But I do care. If I didn't care, I wouldn't have given her my own money just to watch her waste it. She also conveniently forgot that she never stopped her last boyfriend from talking down to her kids right in front of her face while she just smiled and grinned.

Now, she is demanding that i need to apologize to him, telling me I should have said those things to other people that needed to hear it—even though every time I do, she gets furious with me. She keeps making excuses, claiming nobody can get a job because people aren't hiring. I know the job market is tough, but the reality is that there are no jobs in our immediate area; we have to look further out.

She refuses to try to get anything for herself or for us. We are currently on the verge of getting evicted because she barely pays the rent—she only pay $60 a month for a company-owned house, they want more then that and she still isn't paying it. She knew she couldn't afford this place when she signed the lease, but she makes it seem like it's everyone else's fault but her own.

My mom is a narcissist. She always tries to make her kids feel like everything we do is wrong unless it's done her way. But when its other people and their children, we dont even exist to her unless she wants an slave to follow her around. I was already planning on apologizing just to keep the peace, even though I know I was in the wrong. i could've not said anything but my emotions got the best of me. I am just completely drained and can't do this anymore.

Am I the asshole, or should I just keep my mouth shut and keep everything to myself from now on?

sorry if you cant understand the post, I was in a rush to post it. I'll fix it up once i get somewhere better to rewrite it. Thanks for viewing my post.

Edit: nvm, i fixed it.

What if...you were to changed into the opposite gender, would you still like the same gender that you like now? And if so, why or why not?

I would still like the same gender, lol. There's nothing to changed the ways i think of a man. 🤪

Sooner or later in the future, im going to get an apartment. Im gonna get it with utilities. I made several lists of things i need vs what i want. I have been looking at cheap and affordable furniture on sites like Facebook market place and my local thrift stores sites.

Im going to buy the things i need before moving into the apartment like food, mostly things that doesnt need to be refrigerated right away like canned goods and boxed foods, personal hygiene for females and extra small battery lights like fairy lights to cut costs on electric usages. Buy hella cleaning supplies as well along with the personal items. I dont have any extra streaming platforms except for my phone plan, im just going to use youtube, a few pirated sites to watch shows or vids.

Im going to get the Wi-Fi/internet in my name before i move in, clean the carpets, check the sinks, pipes and take pics of everything as well. And I know i have to pay extra for my cat to stay with me. She's 13 years old, doesnt make much noise and sleeps most of the time away in her box. I cant leave her behind, I had her since i was 12.

I just wanna know if there's something im missing so i can add it to my list of things in preparations. Any saving tips, anything apartment hacks, better plans then the ones i have set for myself or just anything in general. Please and thank you for your time.

Hi, im at an standstill in my life atm. And i feel like my mom is adding more to it then she has to. For an better understanding, the house my family lives in is owned by an very expensive company, most of the company houses are either empty or being sold off on the market to people out of town. Im not going to list the company name because i dont wanna doxx myself lol.

Bills have been piling, like really bad pilling up. They just went up on the rent, the electric bill have gotten higher no mattered what me and my siblings try to do to help her save money, and she just buy takeout food, drive all day long or be on the phone. She spends every last drop of fucking money right when she knows bills are due.

I've given her money several times and each time she does something else with it and gets angry at me for not telling her i had it. She don't want any of my siblings or me to get jobs because she doesn't want us to "stop being kids", like ma'am, you ruined our entire childhood with the bullshit you put all of us through.

I want to leave, like really bad. I have dreams of leaving but every time i get close to it, i can hear her voice in my head, disowning me and trying to get me back to her. I dont wanna watch her sink everyone in this boat she created out of laziness and her narcissist ways. I love her, i really do but i hate herl as a person. I cant go into deep details because that'll take all day but i just confirmation if i should go or not. Im stuck and sick of looking at her face and these same walls in my room. Im tired of this life man. I know things are expensive but GOD, i cant take it.

Any advice or anything would help me.

I always had question on the bible since i remembered being in church: Should i be ashamed for not believing in god? I was born into Christianity, taught and even was baptized at ten. I don't believe everything in the bible but i do feel/have connections with some of its verses. Since i was able to read and comprehend words, I fell in love with history. After studying and even trying to understand the complex sections and chapters in the bible, I'm now standing at a point ( THAT I BELIVE AND FEEL IS RIGHT) that i believe its a misogynistic, racist, shaming, controlling, scheming and homophobic book written by over thousands times and translated by men who either hated women, owned slaves or had an seated anger against whatever they believed in. I just feel guilty for not believing in him anymore, most of my family does and i feel odd and left out like i did something wrong. I stopped fully beiling in him on my birthday. And I know someone is going to ask the question of some sort of why i believe those things. I cant believe in something i cant question or have any say in, im just sorry. If he's really the god they make him to be, why is there so must hurt, suffering, pain and anger going around?

Racism: Slaves master used the bible to control the slaves, if you dont believe me go watch slavery movies, documentaries, go to an museum and even read a few books of that history. The slave owners knew their slaves couldn't read but allowed them to have bibles to either make their own interoperation of the book or go off of what their master told them.

Misogynist: The bible talks down on women in many ways, if you dont believe me, read the bible, google it, or ask someone whose heavily into the bible or ask Jehovah's Witness.

Homophobic: The bible talks heavily and proudly down on anyone who likes or have an interest in the same sex of them. You can read the bible or just simple google it to see it.

Controlling: Almost everything we do is a sin, no matter what. You can literally google Druski skit to see an great example. Or just read the bible, everything in there is almost like an guide or an manual to go by. Either you do this thing, if you dont, youll burn in hell. Like take the way the bible see Marriage, the women must obey and obey by her husband rules. Or just by the roles in the bible by genders. But i can see why someone wont agree with me on this part tho, its up to the people who preach it. Most churches ive been in or went into always had an preacher who rally go and pick out certain things just to fit their narrative of what they want to say or speak upon. Its been several times ive been shunned and shamed for speaking against the preacher because i didnt agree with him.

Scheming: I live in the south, i see about six to eight churches on one street, if im lucky i see at least two across from each other. I dont get it, if they're all learning the same thing why is there multiple churches? Why not use the biggest one for everyone? I know, what if there's not enough room? Then we can probably have another one, but not eight churches on the same street. Not just that, i see SO MANY empty ones as well, why cant we use those for the homeless or for stray animals? Maybe make it into an shelter for someone to lay their head. And these churches i see in my area have hella money. You can see it in there buildings, each one of them are either two story or have crazy looking designs on them. The preachers (not all) use the bible as a tool to weaponize its text to have power over the people in the church, to justify their doings or what they want to do. Its all an manipulation and exploiting thing they all use from the bible. It all just seems to be out of touch of the meaning of worshiping an God.

Shameful: The bible made me be shameful of many things that is normal to do (before i stopped believe in it) Like i said, many preaches use the bible to shame many people and be very distressful while doing so. Many times ive read or heard many people use the bible outside of church just to shame someone, like to enforce this social rules, maintaining power or some type of expectations of someone to uphold. Or if im not doing a very good job of explaining, just look up many of those Christianity vids on youtube, theirs at least three of them that try to convert others by either being shameful or disgraceful to their opinions.

THIS IS NOT TO BE HARMFUL OR DISRESPECTFUL TO ANYONE WHO BELIVE IN GOD, ITS JUST MY OPINIONS AND WHERE I STAND. THIS IS AN QUESTION THAT HAVE BEEN BOTHERING ME FOR A LONG TIME GROWING UP.

I truly came to this subreddit to get this off my chest. I made an post last night on a subreddit called r/Apartmentliving. My post is called Without or Without Utilities? Which is better? I had an question, the tittle speaks for itself. I said in the post that I'll use the foodbank if i dont have any food or need to get some, people are over looking my question and jumping straight onto the foodbank issues. I feel really stupid for even having to explain myself on my own post. I had an question, not the need to be told what I should and shouldn't do on my living situation. As if they know me better then myself.

I had an similar post in another surreddt, i deleted because i had the same similar issue, someone trying to tell me how and what i should feel on my situation. That situation was different, i was being complete vulnerable and was sharing my life and experience with staying with an narcistic mother. I love reddit, it have been there for me when no one else had answers but lately im starting to hate it due to people who have the need to either bully or make rude or insensitive comments on others post about their situation they are sharing. I was planning on using reddit for an future project but i changed my mind.

Is because they can do it behind a screen and not get backlashed? An personal issue of some sort? Is it because they feel the power to judge people because they're already down? Is it because its easier to put someone else down then to work on themselves? Its really starting to remind me of twitter, an miserable and depressing app where people who cant even live life without any judgement from someone behind an screen.

I just want to know if im not the only person whose experiencing this. I dont want to delete my account because of those people. I still like reddit but my god, why are people on here feel so intitled to judge and make comments on situations they're not living in?

Hi, I know it's probably not the first time someone has asked the same question as me. I know it will be hard to do so, or even get eyes on any content that is either new or has been seen many times before on any platform. How do you start, gain and maintain an audience on youtube or any streaming platform?

I want to start off doing videos on YouTube, like the walk and rant/walk and talk kinda vids. I don't really see many of them on YouTube, but I see a lot on TikTok and Instagram. Then, I want to slowly make a shift to other platforms like Twitch or Kick.

I do have an idea of what I want to do if I do go over to Twitch or Kick for streaming. I want to be a Vtuber. I know, not a very great move with how competitive is or shocking to be in, but I want to keep my private life hidden from the media. I think Vtubing is a way to do so.

I have several concepts of the type of design I want for my Vtubing character. I don't want to put it out there because I'm afraid someone might take the idea or design, lol.

I understand and know that each platform has different ways of growing an influencer's popularity. I watched several vids of other Vtubers, YouTubers, TikTokers, and even Twitch streamers saying how they became popular. I understand and know that everyone grows differently for different reasons and ways.

If you have any advice or just want to have any input on what I asked about, please comment, or just have anything to say about any content creating ,thank you.

Hi, I know it's probably not the first time someone has asked the same question as me. I know it will be hard to do so, or even get eyes on any content that is either new or has been seen many times before on any platform.

I want to start off doing videos on YouTube, like the walk and rant/walk and talk kinda vids. I don't really see many of them on YouTube, but I see a lot on TikTok and Instagram. Then, I want to slowly make a shift to other platforms like Twitch or Kick.

I do have an idea of what I want to do if I do go over to Twitch or Kick for streaming. I want to be a Vtuber. I know, not very shocking, but I want to keep my private life hidden from the media. I think Vtubing is a way to do so.

I have several concepts of the type of design I want for my Vtubing character. I don't want to put it out there because I'm afraid someone might take the idea or design, lol.

I understand and know that each platform has different ways of growing an influencer's popularity. I watched several vids of other Vtubers, YouTubers, TikTokers, and even Twitch streamers saying how they became popular. I understand and know that everyone grows differently for different reasons and ways.

If you have any advice or just want to have any input on what I asked about, please comment, and thank you!

Hi. I am a 20-year-old female, and my mother is a narcissist. I first realized this when I was 11 or 12 years old. My whole life has been miserable because of her actions. Everything always has to be about her.

She treats people outside our family with kindness and money. But she never gives that same love or support to me and my siblings. She does not want us to talk to other people. She blames us for her own failures. She has told us many times that we are worthless. I believe she is jealous of anyone who is younger, prettier, or more successful than her, including her own daughters.

I want to leave so badly. My plan after high school was to join the military, but that did not work out. Right now, she takes all my money. She will not let my siblings get jobs, but then she complains that we do nothing. She blocks every chance we have to escape. She stopped me from getting my scholarships, messed up a job opportunity for my brother, and tried to stop my sister from graduating.

I love her because she is my mother, but I hate her as a person. I am only scratching the surface of what she has done to us. I have deep trauma because of her.

I want to leave, but I worry about my younger siblings. I do not want to make their lives harder if I go. People tell me I am the "black sheep" or the "scapegoat" of the family. I just know I hate it here. Even with the bad economy, I would rather be homeless than stay. I want to be completely gone by the age of 25.

Hi, I'm a 20 years old female, my mother is a narcissistic mother. I didn't come to that conclusion until i was 11 or 12. My whole life life has been miserable all due to her actions and ways. everything was about her, will be about her, and always be abord by her. Ive told her on many ways that shes a narcissists. She embodies all the things a narcissists is: treat everyone who isnt blood related like their her family, always giving out advice and kind words of wisdom and always giving out money to the ones in need, but she never gave me and my siblings the same treatment. she doesnt want us to interact with anyone, blames us for everything that doesnt go to plan or fail due to her actions, and several times told me and my siblings that were worthless and quickly covered it up with something else, i believe she's jealous of anyone who's a younger, prettier or more successful then her, that includes me, my older sis, my brother wives or anyone she wants to compete or compare to. I want to leave, i really do. My plan after highschool was to go to the military, but if your up to date or watch some of the news, that wasnt be a good idea to do at the moment. She takes all my money, she wont allow any of my siblings whose still living with her get an job but wants to complain about us not doing anything. She sabotage almost anything and everything that allows me and my sibkligs to get away from her. She made she i couldnt get my scholarships, made my brother missed his opportunity to work with google and my older sis from graduating high school. Ive told her in several arguments that i love her as a child should but i hate her as a person. Im only scratching on the surface on most of the things she's done. Ive many problems, traumas and issues and they're mostly stems from her actions or the lack of. I want to leave, i really do but every time im about to, i think of my younger sibligs and how itll make it harder for them to leave. Ive heard from many people both friends, family and some strangers that i may be the blacksheep or escape goat. I dont care whatever that means but i want to leave. I hate it here, i hate that the economy had to be so shitty to. Ill rather go homeless then to come back. Im sorry if none or most of this is all over the place, i just need help before i react on any actions im going to put into place. I want to be gone by the age of 25.