r/oshikatsu

I don't know if this is the best place to post this, but I don't know where else to... Does anyone else get jealous of people have more merch of your oshi? Especially when I see people on TikTok... There's this one content creator and I'm so jealous of him cause he has so much merch and a bigger following, etc. It's gotten to the point where I started to work on a more accurate physique so I can cosplay that character and also be associated with them (hopefully). I know this isn't normal but I just want to know if anyone else is like this and if there's any way to get over it. It's gotten to the point where I've considered blocking that person

I am brand new to this hobby! I have an oshi however it's not an idol or character known, rather a character of my own creation. I have a jointed button eye doll and bjd of him being made. I have purchased items that represent him and plan to make more! (Pins, card, ita bag, drawings ect) However, I realized he's not a licensed character like many I see here. Are there rules about having an oshi and creating crafts/merch of your own fandom? I already had a shrine underway before I ever heard of this! 😲