r/yandere

any suggestions?

I want one, but I don't know where to find a real one?

I want her to make me her property

Feel free to ask questions in DMs or here in the comments!

I'm 22, female, and in university. There's two of them. Jonah...brown hair, brown eyes that seem to have the whole galaxy in them...funny, loud with his friends, a absolute egomaniac, cocky, talented at clarineg and he knows it, superiority complex, smug, arrogrant, untouchable. About 5'3-5'4 right now, about 1-2 inches above me. I try to pass him in the halls everyday, I calculate it where I can pass him, by walking slower, I memorize everything I see him do or say, to who, around what time approximately, how his facial expressions look, how his voice sounds, what kind of clothes he wears, his cologne when I pass him, likely what classes he has and doesn't have and what times, how fast he walks down the hall and with whom at what time so I know how to alter my path to pass directly by him. I almost died because of some drastic things I did last year correlating about him. I micro-stalk him slightly, but barely, I used to last year a lot. I write down everything about him in my journal, memorize how his collgne smells, his likely birth month and zodiac sign from something he mentioned months ago, what his phone looks like, and what is messages/snapchat app layout looks like from briefly seeing it. Oh, god, he's incredible.

Then there's another guy, older some, professional, cold mostly, very alert of everything. About 5'9 I'd say. Auburn red hair, green hazel eyes, calm, cool, collected. I try to pass him multiple times, to look cool and cold around him, I blush sometimes but try to hide it. I memorize his voice, where he usually stands, his cologne and what it smells like, so much that sometimes I'll look over and see him because my senses are so tuned in to the slightest chance he is there. I look around and can every room for him, etc. I write down and memorize what he says or does, how he sighs, how he laughs, etc. I'm VERY obsessed.

I know they barely know I exist and barely have ever talked to me much and definitely don't like me I'm about 99% sure. I'm very inconspicuous usually, too, lol

So....questions? Am I too obsessed? Do they sound good?