u/-HiRO-GeNo

hallo, i'm 22y/o (amab) as of now i identify myself as non-binary/trans-feminine; to me gender euphoria/dysphoria has always felt weird and hard to pint point; for example i used to feel gender euphoria, some times even when just seeing a drawing of a character dressing fem

but then one day i had a lucid dream where i gave myself a chest and a more feminine face, in the moment ik i felt euphoria but after waking up i started having this new uncomfortable feeling, that happened every day multiple times a day for a period of 20-30 mins in the 10 following days

the feeling is specifically and only inside my chest, it kinda feels like smt is pressing on my chest, and it feels heavier to breath but other, and SOMETIMES especially the first few days i also felt physical pain (which doesn't really happen anymore); but other than that? nothing, nothing at all, my mind is clear, calm and i can go on with my day and activities without any problem at all

and usually "dysphoria" happens when i think about my gender, when i see some feminine bodies especially close to my body type and some times randomly (even if now it's less compared to the first few days)

i don't know if it's dysphoria but with how i started having it and the reasons it usually happens i have to think it is; ALSO after starting feeling dysphoria i don't think i've ever felt that euphoria feeling again

it took some months but i finally managed to get on HRT, many times there have been problems and delays which always annoyed and bummed me out when they happened (which makes me think even more i do want to take HRT)

today i got them, earlier in the day i took my cypro, it didn't really feel like nothing i just took it without any kind of anxiety or fear and i didn't have any physical reaction either

then some hours later i finally took my first tablet of E, again taking it was easy no problems there; i didn't have any kind of anxiety before and while taking it

but AFTER taking it i started feeling that feeling i call dysphoria, but as usualy i'm more than mentally ok so i don't know why my body is feeling this? and it has been lasting for like 40 minutes now?? which is ALSO kinda weird bc when i started having this feeling it lasted around this long but after some months it tended to last some minutes max

again mentally i'm ok, my family and friends knows my situation and they cool, i tried make up and it didn't disgust or annoy me, i like fem clothes and recently i bouth my first cute fit and went out with it multiple times without any problems heck i also shaved off body hair for the first time!

and nothing of all that gave me this feeling again so now i wonder why it's happening, which is always hard for me bc as i said mentally it doesn't affect me at all

what do you think? it it just my body getting used to it even if a first dose should do nothing yet?? is my brain just filtering out bad thoughts and the such related to my gender(which would also be weird bc i tend to be very negative about myself to a point where some times i have negative commets about myself randomly, but with this matter in particular my mind would filter the pain off??)

hello hello, i'm 22y/o(23 in december) and i'm AMAB, while i know YMMV and all; i'm still curious on what y'all think on my situation since tomorrow i should be able to finally get on HRT and all, so i was curious

after checking my blood exams i apparenlty have 350 ng/dL T (which seems to be on the lower end of the avarage T levels?) and 31.2 ng/L E (which if the paper is correct it's almost the highest of the avarage E levels, not too sure about that but the it does mark <15-31.5 as the avarage E levels?)

i've always been thin no matter what i ate, so i presume i have a pretty high metabolism especially bc i don't work out at all; i am 54.4 KG and should be 1.80m tall

imma warn i'm not too good with medicine and this kind of information so i dunno if these are the correct infos... but i'm getting on progynova (2mg 1 tablet[not sure how to call it in english sorry-] a day) and androcur (50mg 1/2 tablet a day)

other than that i'd say my family has generally always been on the bigger side with chest and all, at least on my mother's side and also my sister (also what would you suggest to do to get bigger thighs? as i said i'm tremendously thin and don't work out plus i have an high metabolism so i wonder what i should be doin, especially bc there's the whole fat redistribution matter which doesn't happen immediately so how should i be handling that to have the fat go in the correct places?)

so yeah i wonder what y'all think my prospects might look like and what i should be expecting in the next months

i'm amab (currently define myself as nonbinary) and unless i go into the private route i should be able to start getting on E this august; i know that there won't be any "real" effect immeditely and it will take time so i was wondering more about how it felt in the moment (or even some time after)

so yeah...for ppl that already have been taking hrt or just started, how did it feel?? nothing at all until later?? stress?? euphoria though your body?? freaked out?? maybe you felt smt but it was mostly placebo?? what was your experience there!!

imma take E so i'm looking for that mosty ig, but any experience with T is also welcome!

i'm amab (currently define myself as nonbinary) and unless i go into the private route i should be able to start getting on E this august; i know that there won't be any "real" effect immeditely and it will take time so i was wondering more about how it felt in the moment (or even some time after)

so yeah...for ppl that already have been taking hrt or just started, how did it feel?? nothing at all until later?? stress?? euphoria though your body?? freaked out?? maybe you felt smt but it was mostly placebo?? what was your experience there!!

imma take E so i'm looking for that mosty ig, but any experience with T is also welcome!

basically as it says i'm not sure?? i know i'm not cis and i was already trying to get the process of starting hrt goin but i was acting more on euphoria rather than dysphoria, since before i never really felt it (or didn't realize at least); also for context i'm AMAB

my confusion is from the fact that 2 months ago i had a lucid, made my face more feminine gave myself a chest, stuff happened unrelated to that and i woke up; the moment it happened int he dream i do remember feeling euphoria(?) but after some time from waking up i started having a strong uncomfortable sensation in my chest that before then i maybe had once before

for the 10 successive days i would always get that feeling, either randomly, when seeing smt feminine or thinking directly about my gender; it would last for like half an hour each time and even more times in 1 day, and rarely it would also physically hurt

now it's not always as strong as those days but that uncomfortable sensation happens basically every day (heck the other day i had another dream, not a lucid one this time, where i was more gradually becoming a girl and after waking up it got a very strong version of that sensation in my chest)

i am even feeling it now, probably bc i'm writing about this; but the thing is that it's just a physical thing- when i do feel it i'm not in mental distress or anything it just happens??
usually when i see ppl talk about their dysphoria it's either both physical and mental and/or more vague??? like "feeling trapped" (not discrediting that, is just that i don't think that's what i'm physically feeling)
so i didn't really see other ppl talk about smt similar to this?? like physical gender dysphoria but mentally you're fine??

TL;DR
never had any physical feeling of dysphoria before, had a dream where i had a more feminine body and now since then i have this uncomfortable feeling in my chest but mentally i'm mostly fine (or at least i'm not in mental distress about it when i have that feeling in my chest)