u/-Sky_Lux-

I'm on ps5, but anyone is welcome! I'm just happy if anyone is willing to play with me. My username is Misslux#0935 :) I'm from the UK, timezone BST. I mainly play in the evenings after about 7pm. I main heavy.

My social anxiety is bad my apologies if this sounds odd. I've been Playing for 4 months ish, only casual (I tried ranked once and I never will again) I don't use mics because I sound like a 12 year old (I'm not) and I also am not sure how it works, I enjoy the finals even if I win or loose, I never get angry at the game. I have a few people added already however I don't see many online and they are already in groups if they are. Any mode is fine! I have the next week off so I'll most likely be playing more then too.

My psn name is Raybat_141 if you want to add me that way!

I'm 17, and diagnosed autistic and add, however I rarely have any sensory issues and it's a very weak diagnosis since I rarely showed many traits. I am also suspected ocd by a professional. I am very high masking and high functioning.

ever since I was small, I hated when people cough. i despised it,if someone coughed more then twice I got so angry I had to leave. my brother is autistic,ADHD and tourrets. (i spelt that wrong I know) and the opposite to me, and he used to always fidget, tap the table, hit me by accident, beep, all sorts. I got used to it and I knew not to mention it, even tho in reality it drove me insane. I love him alot but I can not stand repetitive sounds. tapping, coughing, clearing throats, scratching, someone rocking, singing, tapping their feet, even when someone brushes their teeth or picks at them. but coughing is my main trigger. my whole life I got dismissed when I mentioned it because my brother was higher needs.

some days it's worse, I can't listen to someone chew. currently my father has a really bad cough, and I have been so angry and had to leave the room, despite still hearing him. he called me rude and selfish because he can't help coughing. i have never felt so angry in my life, and the guilt is horrible.

I have always felt incredibly guilty and nervous because I don't know why I get so irritated. when people in my college tap their pen, burp alot (they are immature) and cough, I can't stand it. it feels like someone is prodding me non stop. I'm not a angry person, I've never yelled or been rude, but when people cough non stop, I have never been so angry. headphones don't always help because if they cough like my father (full force) I can still hear it. I am in no way self diagnosing this or saying it is this, I only discovered it and wanted to know more about it because it sounds so similar.

so I just need some advice. what is misophonia in a more detailed way? can it be linked to autism? can you get tests for it? how can I deal with all of this?

apologies for spelling, I'm dyslexic.

So I'm in college and recently I've been looking into colognes, since I just think I'll feel good about myself? hard to explain but I feel like it will make me feel good if I smell good. I make candles and I'm very big on nice scents, and I love woody scents and the smell of books and nature.

my overall clothing style and such is very woodland-y, quite a few people say I look like I should be by a cabin in the woods. I found encre noir on Pinterest and looking into it, it looks and sounds perfect, however I've seen alot of videos say it's a super mature one, I'm very mature but I just wasnt sure. I've never worn cologne or perfume, and have no idea how it really all works aside from putting on pulse points? i wouldn't wear it all the time but I would like the option of having a nice cologne to put on if I'm going out the house.

is it very strong? I don't like smelling super strong as I'm conscious of other people smelling me, it's silly but quite a few girls in my class wear super strong vanilla perfume and it makes me nauseous, but then again they use a ton and are constantly spraying it. I was thinking of getting a small tester bottle since I have no shops near me which have testing strips. apologies if this sounds odd, I'm dyslexic and my wording isn't great some days.

not sure if that makes sense exactly, but I'm a solo player, I don't really play much anymore as I took a long break but recently I've just been coming on and sitting in prairie home or random spots whilst I journal or draw, or listen to music. to put it plainly, I have no friends and I enjoy that, and I'm awkward with small talk so I like to sort of just.. sit somewhere and wait.

quite a few times strangers have lit me and sat next to me. we enjoy eachothers company, and eventually they leave. no words said, no add requests, just the silent company of a stranger. other times, if they present as sad, I'll sit down on a table and offer them company, or a chat. sometimes we talk about deep subjects, which I really enjoy. other times they talk about something on their mind, relationship issues, family deaths ect. they don't always want advice, they just want to talk to someone who isn't someone they know. although we never talk again, I always keep note of those stories from strangers. sometimes I've written them down in my private journal, to remind me that nobody is really alone. sometimes they just want someone there. I've had people sit by me for up to a hour or two whilst they've showered or cleaned their room because they just want someone there. sometimes I've encouraged them to do it, or told them a good comfort food. Sometimes people have taken naps so that someone is there when they wake up.

it never weighs me down or affects me. i always enjoy being a sort of guardian to people and strangers, or a safe space that people have the option to go too, it makes me feel sort of, more like myself? or like I'm truly sort of peaceful when I'm like that to someone, or when someone sees me as a safe space.

nowadays I don't get much company, I wish I did and I'll always offer my company to people. but I just wondered if anyone else in this group enjoy silent company? obviously the people I met have, but sometimes we never speak so I never hear their opinion on it. what are your thoughts and feelings on it?

apologies if this sounds odd or soppy.

Edit: And to add on, if anyone ever does want company I'll happily offer mine. Silent company, just need a chat, just want someone there, even if you just want to explore ect. I'll always offer mine, pick a spot and I'll sit there.

since I'm down to one hen, I'm hopefully getting about 2 buff Orpingtons? possibly 3 in a couple months, along side a possible different breed hen. I've only ever owned ISA browns (I had 3 however two passed so now I'm down to one) and at one point there was alot of bullying going on but I sorted it out.

from what I have researched, they are a calmer breed, live fairly long ect. I just wanted to know from people who have owned buff Orpingtons, what your experience is and what you would tell someone who has never owned the breed before! thank you :)

ps. my current hen is loving being alone, hence the long wait until getting new hens, don't worry I health check her alot and she's super happy and healthy on her own , enjoying egg tirement!

sorry if this makes no sense. I used to have a diary allergy to i believe the proteins in dairy, and I grew out of it when I was about 8? I'm 17 now, and I love cheese, I devour it. however on Sunday, I had a cheese and tomato toastie from Costa, as soon as I took a bite, the roof of my mouth flared up. once I got home it was swollen and I vomited, and it spread to my throat the next day I couldn't eat, drink or speak for two days. it lasted until yesterday, but got alot better on Tuesday-wednesday. today it's not swollen atall and I'm just very dehydrated.

during being ill, I ate small blocks of cheese and had no reaction. A couple hours ago I had ketchup and a mini pizza, which I thought might cancel out the tomato side of it. I had no reaction so far.

my question is, is there any possible way, you can only be allergic to cheese for example, in a bigger quantity? for example of you ate a slice of cheese you may not be affected but if you ate macaroni it would affect you? is that possible?

ps. I may have just had a reaction to the sudden heat, however because of my history of a diary allergy, I will get it checked out and see! there is also a ton of ingredients and such in the toastie so there's a chance it was something else? it's better for me to get tested just incase! I'll avoid Costa for now.