apparently the neurological symptoms i had were not the stroke
dont know if "survivor" is the write descriptor for this specifically,
in july 2023 i had what i thought was a migraine which temporarily impacted my abilily to form coherent sentences, i brought it up to my doctor and got a CT scan in november in which there was a dark spot but it was mistaken for artifact
december 2025 i was still having migraines and headaches that were responding to anti-migraine meds, a neurologist referred me for an mri which is where they saw the "old left cerebellar infarct which was present in 2023"
today i (26NB) had an appointment at the stroke clinic and was told that the symptoms i experienced had nothing to do with the placement of the stroke, which means i have had 2 "neurological events" and i dont even know when the stroke actually happened
i just finished a 48hr holter monitor this weekend after an EKG showed a sinus arrhythmia and i told my doctor i had fainted once in 2017, i've had an echo before for EDS but the clinic ordered another one along with the contrasted CT scan which was recommended by the neurologist, and i also need to monitor my blood pressure
i have to quit smoking and vaping. i've never been known for having much willpower and i've been using them as vices since 2016. im also not allowed to take estrogen birth control but i havent had a period in 3 months because of the progesterone-only one and i dont like that at all.
i have always carried a lot of stress and anxiety and the unanswered questions and uncertainty of all this is only making it worse. i have 5 weeks until i get my career certification and then i'm supposed to start my life for real and do the things i want to like become a mother and create a home for my family
im so scared